nathI, ne bAhya viShayo taraphanun valaN ekAnt dukharUp chhe, temAn svapne ya sukh nathI.–Am vivekathI vichArIne tArA
anrtasvabhAv taraph vaL, ne bAhya viShayomAn sukhabuddhi chhoDIne temanAthI nivRutta thA...nivRutta thA. nitya nirbhay sthAn
ane sukhanun dhAm to tAro AtmA ja chhe
nirbhayapaNe svabhAvamAn jhUk...svabhAvanI samIp jatAn tane potAne khabar paDashe ke ahA! A to mahAAnandanun dhAm chhe,
AnI sAdhanAmAn kaShTa nathI paN UlaTun te to kaShTanA nAshano upAy chhe...A ja mArun nirbhayapad chhe.
chaitanyadhyAnamAn pravRutti kyAthi thAy? tethI AchAryadev karuNAthI samajAve chhe ke are jIv! jemAn tun
sukh mAnI rahyo chhe evA indriyaviShayo samAn bIjun koI bhayasthAn nathI; ane jemAn tun kaShTa mAnI
rahyo chhe evI paramAtmabhAvanA sivAy bIjun koI abhayasthAn nathI. bhavadukhothI tArI rakShA kare
evun koI abhayasthAn A jagatamAn hoy to te tArun paramAtmatattva ja chhe, mATe tenI bhAvanAmAn
udyat thA.
jem pIttajvaravALA rogIne mIThun dUdh paN kaDavun lAge chhe tem jene UndhI ruchino rog lAgu paDayo chhe evA bahirAtmAne
param sukhadAyak evI AtmasvarUpanI bhAvanA paN kaShTarUp lAge chhe.–AvI viparIt buddhine lIdhe ja agnAnI jIv
AtmasvarUpanI bhAvanA bhAvato nathI ne viShayakaShAyanI ja bhAvanA bhAve chhe. santo AtmasvarUpanI bhAvanA karavAnI
vAto kare tyAn paN, ‘are! te ApaNathI kem bane? AtmAnI samajaN ApaNane kyAthi thAy?’–em bhaDakIne
bhayabhIt thAy chhe, potAthI te thaI ja na shake em mAnIne temAn nirutsAhI rahe chhe, ne bAhya viShayomAn ja utsAharUp
varte chhe; tethI ja anAdikALathI jIv dukhI thaI rahyo chhe. kharekhar to A jIvane potAnA paramAtmatattvanI bhAvanA
samAn bIjo koI padArtha jagatamAn sukhadAyI nathI, mATe te bhAvanA ja kartavya chhe.
tem chaitanyarAjAnA darabAramAn, pahel vahelo AtmAno anubhav karavA mATe prayatna karanArane, anAdinA ajANapaNAne
kAraNe k kkaShTa jevun lAge, paN ruchipUrvak vAramvAr chaitanyarAjAno parichay karatAn te sugam–sahaj ane AnandarUp
lAge chhe...ane vAramvAr chaitanyatattvanI bhAvanA karIne temAn ja layalIn rahevA mAnge chhe, mATe chaitanyatattvanI bhAvanA
kharekhar kaShTarUp nathI paN AnandarUp chhe. Avo vishvAs lAvIne he jIv! tun vAramvAr tenI bhAvanA kar.
tun dukhI thayo. parachIj kadI AtmAnI thaI ja nathI ne