Atmadharma magazine - Ank 348
(Year 29 - Vir Nirvana Samvat 2498, A.D. 1972)
(English transliteration).

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: Aso: 2498 Atmadharma : 17 :
chaitanyanidhAn gupta rahI shake nahIn.
ahA, paripUrNa sukhano nidhAn mAro AtmA, tenI bhAvanArUpe hun pariNamyo chhun,
tethI bhavanA kAraNarUp badhA bhAvothI hun nivRutta chhun. bhaviShyamAn jenAthI bhav karavo paDe
evA koI paN ashubh ke shubharUp sansArabhAvo–tenAthI nivRutta mAro AtmA chhe. mArA
svabhAvamAn bhav nathI, ne te svabhAvanI bhAvanArUp pariNamelI mArI paryAyamAn paN
bhavano koI bhAv nathI. Avo hun chhun em dharmI anubhave chhe.
sundar naukAmAn beTho chhun. mArun A paramatattva pote ja sansAranA mahA samudrane taravAnI
naukA chhe, tethI mArA tattvanI bhAvanAthI hun svayam bhavasamudrane tarI jaIsh, bhavane taravA
mATe mAre bIjA koInA avalambananI jarUr nathI. ahA, mArun Avun param achintya
tattva! tenA svIkAr vaDe men mohane jItI lIdho chhe; have mAre bhavasamudramAn DubavAnun hoy
nahIn. sahaj param AnandanA samudramAn pariNati lIn thaI tyAn have bhav kevA? chaitanyano
shAshvat mahA Anand....tenI shI vAt! e apUrva Anand jagatamAn prasiddha chhe...siddha
bhagavantomAn bharelo e atIndriy mahA Anand amArA AtmAmAn paN pragaTyo chhe;
ahA! AvA mahA apurva Anandano svAd chAkhyA pachhI kAmanA kaleshane koN Ichchhe?
jeo kAmavAsanAnA kaleshathI viShayomAn sukh mAne chhe teo to jaDabuddhi chhe.
ahA, chaitanyanun viShayAtIt sukh!...e sukhAmRutano svAd lIdhA pachhI viShayonA
jherane koN vAnchhe? emAn sukh koN mAne?–
gnAnakalA jisake ghaT jAgI, te jagamAnhI sahaj vairAgI;
gnAnI magan viShayasukh mAnhI, yah viparIt, sambhave nAnhI.
aho, jenA antaramAn bhedagnAnanI vItarAgakaLA pragaTI, jagatathI sahaj vairAgI
thaIne antarmukh chaitanyasukh jeNe chAkhyun evA gnAnI–dharmAtmA–jagatathI udAsIn param
vairAgyavant jIvo kadI viShayomAn sukh mAnIne temAn magna thAy–evI viparItatA banI
shakatI nathI. viShayAtIt chaitanyasukhano anuvabh kare ane viShayomAn paN sukh mAne–e
to atyant viparItatA chhe, te kadI sambhavI shake nahi. gnAnI to kahe chhe ke are, chaitanyanA
sukhanI param atIndriy shAnti anubhavyA pachhI, bAhya viShayo amane kalesharUp lAge chhe,
temAn kyAy amArI pariNati TharatI nathI. pariNatine TharavAnun sthAn