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pahane the. devake rUpamen the. aise pahachAnamen Aye ki ye gurudev hain. gurudev devake rUpamen hI the.
gurudevane kahA ki aisA kuchh nahIn rakhanA, main yahIn hUn. devamen virAjatA hUn, (lekin) main yahIn hUn, aisA rakhanA. aisA gurudevane kahA. aisA hAth karake kahA. aisA huA ki ye sab kaise (samAdhAn kare)? gurudevane javAb nahIn diyA. gurudevane do-tIn bAr kahA ki main yahIn hUn, aisA hI mAnanA. main yahIn hUn, aisA gurudevane kahA.
... svapna vaishAkh shukla-2kA thA. bAdamenn kahA. gurudevane kuchh javAb nahIn diyA, sun liyA. gurudevane kahA, manamen aisA nahIn rakhanA, main yahIn hUn. merA astitva hai, aisA hI mAnanA. hAth aise karake kahA. gurudev devake rUpamen the. hUbahU devake rUpamen. devake vastra, mugaT sab devake rUpamen thA.
mumukShu- to bhI pahachAn liyA ki ye gurudev hI hain.
samAdhAna- hAn, guredav hI hain, dev nahIn hai. main yahIn hUn, aisA mAnanA. main kadAchit mAnUn, lekin aise kaise mAn len? aisA vichAr to Aye. ye sab kaise (mAne)? ye bechAre kaise mAne? gurudev kuchh bole nahIn. parantu gurudevakA atishay prasar gayA. us vakta sabako aisA ho gayA. nahIn to har sAl sabake hRudayamen dukh hotA thA. us vakta ekadam ullAs-se sab karate the.
gurudevane kahA, aisA manamen nahIn rakhanA. us vakta svapnamen bahut pramod thA. us ekadam tAjA thA na. main yahIn hUn. gurudevakI AgnA huyI, phir kuchh...
gurudev shAshvat rahe, mahApuruSh... alag thI. main to unakA shiShya hUn. unhonne jo mArgakA prakAsh kiyA, vah kahanekA hai. sAkShAt gurudev hI lage, devake rUpamen. aisA kuchh nahIn rakhanA. main yahIn hUn, aisA mAnanA. kaise padhAre? kaise padhAre? gurudev padhAro, padhAro aisA manamen hotA thA. pUrI rAt andar aisI bhAvanA rahA karatI thI, gurudev padhAro, padhAro. phir prAtakAlamen gurudev Upar-se devake rUpamen padhAre hon, aisA (svapna AyA). gurudev padhAre.