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samAdhAna- ... gurudevane dhodh barasAyA hai. is panchamakAlamen itanA upadeshakA dhodh itane sAl tak barasAyA, vah to koI mahAbhAgyakI bAt hai.
mumukShu- ..
samAdhAna- sabako us mArga par le Aye. nAnAlAlabhAIko to gurudevakA kitanA thA. unake sAth hI rahate the. yahAn sab aise hI Ate hain. gurudevake pratAp-se. sab bachapan-se hI aise hain. chhoTe the tab-se. ve kahate hain, mujhe aisA lagatA hai. pUrva aur bhaviShyake vishiShTa vyakti. gurudevake pratAp-se sab aisA hI hai, samajh lenA. gurudev svayam bhagavAnake pAs-se Aye. koI vishiShTa, gurudev svayam hI vishiShTa (the). to unake shiShya vishiShTa hon.
ye sab pUchhate hain. gurudevakI vah sajAvaT kI thI na? chitra Adi dekhane gayI thI. phir vahAn-se Akar pUrI rAt (bhAv ho rahe the ki), yah sab sajAvaT kI hai, lekin gurudev virAjate hon to kaisA lage! aise vichAr Ate the, aise hI raTan chalatA rahA. gurudev ho, gurudev ho to yah sab shobhatA hai. phir prAtakAlamen svapna AyA, gurudev devake rUpamen hI the. devake rUpamen padhAre. phir devake vastra, devakA ratnamay pahanAvaT (thA). mujhe (aise) hAth karake kahA, bahin! main to yahIn hUn, aisA mAnanA. tIn bAr kahA. main to yahIn hUn, aise hI mAnanA. tIn bAr kahA. gurudev devake vastramen the.
mainne kahA, gurudev! mujhe ApakI AgnA hai aisA rakhUn, lekin ye sab dukhI ho rahe hain. gurudev tab maun rahe. phir mainne kisIko kuchh kahA nahIn thA. parantu dUjake din vAtAvaraN hI aisA ho gayA thA. sab Anandamay vAtAvaraN ho gayA thA. gurudev mAnon virAjate hon, aisA vAtAvaraN ho gayA thA. phir kahA. ... gurudev hain, aise pahachAn le. gnAnamen aisA hotA hai na ki gurudev hai, aise devake rUpamen pahachAne jAya. sab kahate the, mujhe lagA kaun jAne? usamen (viDIyomen) UtarA usamen aisA lagatA thA. mujhe lagA viDIyomen aisA sAkShAt jaise kyon lagatA hai? aisA hotA thA. viDIyomen aisA lagatA thA. mAnon sAkShAt virAjate hon! aisA lagatA thA. parantu viDIyomen mujhe koI vichAr nahIn thA, aise hI dekhate-dekhate gurudevake phoTo A rahe the. usamen ek phoTo aisA AyA