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rAg hotA hai.
parantu bhedagnAn ho to alpa asthiratA rahatI hai. parantu vah samajhatA hai ki merI asthiratAke kAraN hai. vAstavik rUp-se koI iShTa nahIn hai, koI aniShTa nahIn hai. vah sab to parapadArtha hai. isaliye vah svayam puruShArthakI mandatAke kAraN gRuhasthAshramamen khaDe ho, to bhI asthiratAko jAne ki ye sab merI mandatAke kAraN hotA hai. vAstavik koI iShTa nahIn hai, koI aniShTa nahIn hai. use bhedagnAn vartatA hai.
mithyAtvamen jo rAg-dveSh hote hain, vah use ekatvabuddhirUp (hote hain ki) ye mujhe ThIk hai aur ThIk nahIn hai, ThIk hai, ThIk nahIn hai. vah svayam rAg hI us jAtakA grahaN kar letA hai. koI nimitta mujhe ThIk hai, aThIk hai. usake mithyAtvake kAraN, aisI buddhi-ekatvabuddhike kAraN aisA chalatA hI rahatA hai.
usakI ekatvabuddhi TUTe ki vAstavik koI iShTa-aniShTa hai hI nahIn, main chaitanya bhinna gnAyak hUn. ye koI achchhA nahIn hai, bUrA nahIn hai. mAtra apanI kalpanA-se aisI buddhi hotI rahatI hai. main usase bhinna hUn. isaprakAr bhinna honekA prayatna kare. phir alpa rAg rahatA hai vah usake puruShArthakI mandatAke kAraNa. ekatAbuddhiko toDanekA prayatna kare. bAhar use kuchh nahIn ho to svayam hI andar aise vikalpa utpanna karatA hai, ekatvabuddhike kAraNa.
mumukShu- satya bAt hai, apaneAp utpanna hote rahate hain. parapadArtha ho bhI nahIn, to bhI (utpanna hote hain).
samAdhAna- svayam hI andar-se utpanna hote rahate hain.
mumukShu- .... us vakta vibhAvarUp kyon pariNamatA hai?
samAdhAna- gnaptikriyA, parantu vah gnaptikriyA yathArtharUp kahAn hai? gnapti gnaptirUp svayam rahatA nahIn. karoti kriyA ho jAtI hai. main ye sab karatA hUn aur mujhase ye sab hotA hai. gnAyakarUp rahe to gnaptikriyA barAbar kahen. parantu vah gnaptikriyA kahIn svayamko jAnatA nahIn hai. svayamko jAnatA ho, svako jAnanepUrvak par jAne to vah barAbar ho. parantu svako nahIn jAnatA hai aur ye par sthUlarUp-se jAnatA hai. jo svako nahIn jAnatA, vah dUsaronko yathArtha nahIn jAnatA. isaliye gnaptikriyA hotI hai, parantu vah gnaptikriyA bhI use karotikriyA hai. vah sAkShI nahIn rahatA hai. mAnon main usako kar detA hUn, isake kAraN aisA hotA hai. jAnanA arthAt vah sthUlarUp-se jAnatA hai. vah yathArtha nahIn jAnatA hai.
svako jAne to hI usane yathArtha jAnA kahanemen Aye. svako jAne binA jAnanA vah yathArtha nahIn jAnatA. svako chhoDakar sabako jAne vah kuchh jAnanA nahIn hai. svapUrvak