92 sab shubhabhAv huA, puNyabandha huA. naumvI graiveyak gayA, lekin AtmAkA gnAn nahIn huA to bhavakA abhAv nahIn huA. shAstra paDh letA hai, parantu bhItaramen vairAgya nahIn huA ki yah achchhA nahIn hai, yah paradravya hai. svadravya koI apUrva alaukik chIj hai, isakI mahimA nahIn kI, vibhAvase virakti-vairAgya nahIn AyA. akelA shAstrakA svAdhyAy kiyA, parantu bhItaramen kuchh nahIn kiyA to bhI lAbh nahIn huA.

mumukShu- mAtAjI! dravyalingI to bahut gnAn aur vairAgya karatA hai. phir bhI siddhi nahIn hotI hai?

samAdhAna- gnAn aur vairAgya donon karatA hai, parantu gnAn aisA kiyA ki AtmAkA gnAn nahIn kiyA. vairAgya bhI aisA bhItaramense nahIn kiyA. bAharase sab chhoD diyA. sah chhoDakar chalA gayA. aisI kriyA kI, bahut kI. jaisA shAstramen AtA hai, aisI bAharase bahut kriyA kI. gnAn bhI bahut huA. bhItaramense gyArah angakA gnAn ho gayA. lekin bhItaramen Atmatattvako nahIn pahachAnA.

main AtmA kaun hUn? aur merA kyA svabhAv hai? main koI adabhut chaitanya dravya hUn. aise dravyako pahachAnA nahIn. usakI mahimA nahIn AyI. use vairAgya nahIn huA, bhItaramense nahIn huA. gnAn bhI huA, vairAgya bhI huA, sab Uparase. gyArah ang to bhItaramense kShayopasham ho gayA. gyArah angakA (gnAn huA), parantu mUl prayojanabhUt tattvako nahIn pIchhAnA. gnAn aur vairAgya donon sAthamen hai. Uparase sAthamen hue. bhItaramen jo mUl tattva hai, us tattvako nahIn pIchhAnA. sab bolatA hai, vichAr karatA hai, dravya-guN-paryAy aisA hai, aisA hai, charchA karatA hai, parantu bhItaramen mUl tattva, chaitanyatattva bhItaramense nahIn pIchhAnA. aisA gnAn kuchh kAmakA nahIn huA.

vairAgya bhI bhItaramense (nahIn huA). bAharase chhoD diyA, lekin bhItaramen us shubhabhAvamen ruchi rah gayI. aisI ruchi rah gayI gaharAImen ki use khyAlamen nahIn AtA. ashubhabhAvase to vairAgya huA, lekin shubhabhAvamen ruchi rah gayI. shubhAshubh bhAvase bhI bhinna hUn. aisA vairAgya bhItaramense nahIn huA. bas, akelA nivRuttimay chaitanyatattva nirvikalpa tattvamen hI sukh hai, bAhar kahIn bhI sukh nahIn hai, aisA nirNay aur aisI ruchi nahIn huyI. shubhabhAvamen ruchi rah gayI.

mumukShu- vrat, niyam dhAraN kiye use samay ruchi ThIk hai?

samAdhAna- vrat, niyam dhAraN kiye lekin bhItaramen ruchi shubhabhAvamen rah gayI. shubhabhAvamen ruchi rah gayI. shubhabhAv bhI AtmAkA svabhAv nahIn hai. shubhabhAvase devalok hotA hai, parantu bhavakA abhAv nahIn hotA hai. shubhabhAv bIchamen hotA hai, lekin vah AtmAkA svabhAv to nahIn hai. vah bhI vibhAv hai. pravRuttimay hai, AkulatAmay hai,