228 hisābase. usakī bhāvanā thī.
samādhānaḥ- aṁtarameṁ vikalpa-se chūṭanā usameṁ to puruṣārtha cāhiye.
mumukṣuḥ- vah atyaṁt kaṭhin lagatā hai.
samādhānaḥ- vah to puruṣārtha-se (hotā hai). vaisā puruṣārtha pragaṭ honā, utanī ugratā ho to hotā hai.
mumukṣuḥ- kaisī ugratā?
samādhānaḥ- ugratā hī cāhiye. kahīṁ cain na paḍe, vikalpameṁ use cain na paḍe. kahīṁ cain na paḍe to hotā hai. vikalpakī jālameṁ bhī cain na paḍe, aisā honā cāhiye. kahīṁ sukh na lage. aṁtarameṁ-se prāpta na ho tabatak cain na paḍe, utanī ugratā aṁtarameṁ honī cāhiye.
.. mujhe bahut ānanda lagatā hai, mujhe bahut aisā lagatā hai, aise jo vikalpa āte haiṁ, vah vikalpameṁ hī khaḍā hai. mujhe aṁtarameṁ bahut bhāvameṁ bahut ānanda ātā hai, mujhe isakā bahut ras ātā hai, mujhe aisā bahut hotā hai. vah sab vikalpa hī hai, andar vikalpakā ānanda hai. caitanyakā astitva-dravyameṁ-se ānanda cāhiye, vah ānanda alag hai, vah to sahaj ānanda hai. use vikalpa-se ānanda nahīṁ hotā, vah to sahaj ānanda hai. vikalpa nahīṁ hai ki mujhe bahut ānanda āyā yā mujhe yah prāpta huā, aisā vikalpa bhī jahān̐ chūṭ jātā hai. jo sahaj ānanda pragaṭ hotā hai, vah aṁtar-se bhinna paḍ jātā hai. andar bhinna hokar jo ānanda ātā hai, sahaj ānanda jo ātā hai. use kr̥trimatā nahīṁ hotī ki mujhe isameṁ bahut ānanda āyā.
jisakī ānanda par bhī dr̥ṣṭi nahīṁ hai, parantu sahaj ānanda ātā hai. ek apanā astitva grahaṇ karatā hai. ānanda sahaj andarameṁ-se pragaṭ hotā hai. vikalpa karake ānanda nahīṁ vedanā paḍatā. ... to pragaṭ hotā hai. vikalpakī diśā hai, usakī pūrī diśā palaṭ jānī cāhiye.
bhinna paḍanā vah puruṣārtha alag rah jātā hai. abhī to kṣaṇ-kṣaṇameṁ bhedajñān (kare ki) vikalpa-se bhī maiṁ bhinna hū̃n. pahale to aisā bhedajñān honā cāhiye ki vikalpa- se bhī maiṁ bhinna hūn̐, aisī jñāyakakī dhārā pahale honī cāhiye, to nirvikalpa ho. vikalpa- se bhī maiṁ to bhinna hū̃n. aisī aṁtarameṁ-se jñāyakakī dhārā (pragaṭ honī cāhiye).