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samādhānaḥ- hān̐, use bhāvanā āve. mujhe jānā hai andar, puruṣhārthakī gati mujh- se karanī hai, parantu bāharamen bhī mujhe nimitta satpuruṣhakā nimitta ho, aisī bhāvanā (hotī hai). mujhe mārga batāye, mujhe kahān̐ jānā hai, vah sab mārga batānevāle sachche nimitta mere pās ho, aisī bhāvanā hotī hai. pratyakṣha satpuruṣhake satsaṅgakī bhāvanā rahatī hai. phir bāharakā yog kitanā bane vah alag bāt hai, parantu aisī bhāvanā use hotī hai.
mumukṣhuḥ- ..
samādhānaḥ- .. gurudev devake rūpamen hī the. ye gurudev hain, aise pahachānā. aur gurudevake sab kapaḍe devake the. gurudevane aisā kahā ki, aisā kuchh nahīn rakhanā. main yahīn hū̃n. phir, dūsarī bār kahā. gurudev aisā kahate hain, main yahīn hū̃n. gurudevane phir-se kahā, main yahīn hū̃n. kahā, padhāro gurudev! aho..! aho! sadaguru.. mainne kyā kahā vah yād nahīn hai. padhāro gurudev! aisā kahā. phir gurudevane kahā, main yahīn hū̃n. phir kahā, mujhe kadāchit aisā lage, lekin ye sab bechāre gurudev, gurudev karate haĩn. sabako kaise (samajhānā)? gurudev kuchh bole nahī̃n. gurudevane itanā kahā ki main yahīn hū̃n. āpako aisā kuchh nahīn rakhanā, main yahīn hū̃n.
mumukṣhuḥ- ham sabako aisā hī lagatā thā ki gurudev yahīn hai. parantu gurudevakī anupasthiti mālūm hī nahīn paḍatī.
samādhānaḥ- gurudev... kaun jāne aisā atishay ho gayā. sabako aisā ho gayā. mainne turanta kisīko nahīn kahā thā. phir sabake manamen aisā ho gayā thā ki gurudev yahān̐ hai. svapnamen aisā lage ki gurudev hī hai.
mumukṣhuḥ- ..
samādhānaḥ- aisā rakhanā hī nahī̃n. main yahīn hū̃n. do bār aisā kahā. phir kisī aurane kahā, gurudev aisā kahate hain ki main yahīn hū̃n. gurudev kuchh bole nahīn, parantu gurudevane itanā kahā, main yahīn hū̃n. main yahīn hūn̐, bahin! main yahīn hū̃n. manamen aisā chalatā thā na, isaliye. .. āye ho na, aisā devakā pahanāvā. aur mudrāmen gurudev jaisā lage aur dūsarī taraph-se dev jaisā lage. mugaṭ ādi, devakā rūp hotā hai na, devakā rūpa.
mumukṣhuḥ- pañchamakālamen dev āte haĩn.
samādhānaḥ- ... isaliye main kahatī thī ki gurudev sab dekhate haĩn. upayog rakhe to gurudevako sab dikhatā hai. gurudev yahān̐-se bhagavānake pās jāte haĩn. ūpar-se sab dikhatā hai. vimānamen jāte haĩn. mahāvideh, bharatakṣhetra sab samīp hī hai. yahān̐ bagalamen mahāvideh kṣhetra hai. parantu yahān̐ bīchamen pahāḍ ā gaye isaliye kuchh dikhatā nahīn hai. sabakī shakti kam ho gayī hai.