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samādhānaḥ- ... gurudevane dhodh barasāyā hai. is pañchamakālamen itanā upadeshakā dhodh itane sāl tak barasāyā, vah to koī mahābhāgyakī bāt hai.
mumukṣhuḥ- ..
samādhānaḥ- sabako us mārga par le āye. nānālālabhāīko to gurudevakā kitanā thā. unake sāth hī rahate the. yahān̐ sab aise hī āte haĩn. gurudevake pratāp-se. sab bachapan-se hī aise haĩn. chhoṭe the tab-se. ve kahate hain, mujhe aisā lagatā hai. pūrva aur bhaviṣhyake vishiṣhṭa vyakti. gurudevake pratāp-se sab aisā hī hai, samajh lenā. gurudev svayam bhagavānake pās-se āye. koī vishiṣhṭa, gurudev svayam hī vishiṣhṭa (the). to unake shiṣhya vishiṣhṭa hõn.
ye sab pūchhate haĩn. gurudevakī vah sajāvaṭ kī thī na? chitra ādi dekhane gayī thī. phir vahān̐-se ākar pūrī rāt (bhāv ho rahe the ki), yah sab sajāvaṭ kī hai, lekin gurudev virājate hon to kaisā lage! aise vichār āte the, aise hī raṭan chalatā rahā. gurudev ho, gurudev ho to yah sab shobhatā hai. phir prātaḥkālamen svapna āyā, gurudev devake rūpamen hī the. devake rūpamen padhāre. phir devake vastra, devakā ratnamay pahanāvaṭ (thā). mujhe (aise) hāth karake kahā, bahin! main to yahīn hūn̐, aisā mānanā. tīn bār kahā. main to yahīn hūn̐, aise hī mānanā. tīn bār kahā. gurudev devake vastramen the.
mainne kahā, gurudev! mujhe āpakī āgnā hai aisā rakhūn̐, lekin ye sab duḥkhī ho rahe haĩn. gurudev tab maun rahe. phir mainne kisīko kuchh kahā nahīn thā. parantu dūjake din vātāvaraṇ hī aisā ho gayā thā. sab ānandamay vātāvaraṇ ho gayā thā. gurudev mānon virājate hon, aisā vātāvaraṇ ho gayā thā. phir kahā. ... gurudev hain, aise pahachān le. gnānamen aisā hotā hai na ki gurudev hai, aise devake rūpamen pahachāne jāya. sab kahate the, mujhe lagā kaun jāne? usamen (viḍīyomen) ūtarā usamen aisā lagatā thā. mujhe lagā viḍīyomen aisā sākṣhāt jaise kyon lagatā hai? aisā hotā thā. viḍīyomen aisā lagatā thā. mānon sākṣhāt virājate hon! aisā lagatā thā. parantu viḍīyomen mujhe koī vichār nahīn thā, aise hī dekhate-dekhate gurudevake phoṭo ā rahe the. usamen ek phoṭo aisā āyā