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hai, parantu sAkShIrUp pariNaman jo honA chAhiye, vah pariNaman nahI.n hai aur rAg-dveShake sAth ekatvabuddhi hai. mai.n rAgarUp ho gayA, dveSharUp ho gayA. aisI pariNati aur aisI mAnyatA, aisI ekatvabuddhi ho gayI hai. pariNati palaTakar mai.n j~nAyak anAdiananta shAshvat hU.N. aisI pratIt aur aisI pariNati a.ntarame.n honI chAhiye ki mai.n sAkShI hI hU.N, j~nAyak hI hU.N. j~nAtArUp pariNati pragaT kare aur vah pariNati pragaT karanekA abhyAs kare, vah jabatak sahaj na ho jAy tabataka. sahaj ho, tab usakA vAstavik sAkShIpanA hotA hai. sahaj dashA ho to sAkShI ho. pahale usakA prayatna kare ki mai.n anAdiananta shAshvat j~nAyak hU.N. kisIke sAth ekatvabuddhi, ekamek honA usakA svabhAv nahI.n hai, parantu ekatvabuddhi mAnyatAme.n bhram ho gayA hai. pariNati ekatva ho gayI hai, use bhinna karake, mai.n j~nAyak hI hU.N, pahale usakI pratIti dR^iDh kare ki mai.n j~nAyak hI hU.N. a.ntar-se samajhakar pratIti kare. j~nAyakakI dhArA yadi pragaT ho to use kShaN-kShaName.n j~nAyakakI dhArA sahaj rahe to sAkShIbhAv rahe. lekin vah j~nAyakadhArA rahatI nahI.n, sAkShIbhAv rahatA nahI.n aur rAg- dveShake sAth ekatvabuddhi ho jAtI hai, isaliye sAkShI nahI.n rahatA. mAtra kalpanA-se raTan karake sAkShI mAne to vah rahatA nahI.n. sahaj sAkShIpanA ho to rahe. sahaj nahI.n hai, isaliye rahatA nahI.n.

mumukShuH- a.ntar-se samajhakar kare to. a.ntar-se samajhakar kare usakA artha?

samAdhAnaH- a.ntar-se samajhakar kare (arthAt) vah pariNati pragaT kare to hotA hai. svAnubhUti honeke bAd jo sahaj pariNatikI dashA ho, jo sAkShI j~nAyakadhArAkI, vah sahaj hai. usake pahale use abhyAsarUp hotA hai ki mai.n j~nAyak hU.N, j~nAyak hU.N. abhyAsarUp kare. raTanamAtra kare to vah (vAstavik nahI.n hai). kShaN-kShaName.n jab rAg- dveSh ho, us kShaN j~nAyak yadi maujUd rahe to ekatva nahI.n hotA. usI kShaN j~nAyak rahatA nahI.n aur dUsarI kShaName.n yAd kare to us kShaName.n to use ekatva ho jAtA hai. kShaN-kShaName.n usakI pariNatiko bhinna karanekA abhyAs kare. kShaN-kShaName.n mai.n j~nAyak hI hU.N, mai.n sAkShI hI hU.N, aisA abhyAs kare to bhI abhI abhyAsarUp hai. sahaj to bAdame.n hotA hai.

mumukShuH- pahale to Apane prashname.n ek bhUl nikAlI ki bAt-bAtame.n rAg-dveSh ho jAte hai.n. vAstavame.n to svabhAv apekShA-se rAg-dveSh hote nahI.n hai, parantu ekatvatA karatA hai.

samAdhAnaH- ekatvabuddhi hotI hai, ekatvatA hotI hai. vastu svabhAvame.n rAg-dveSh nahI.n hote, parantu usakI ekatvabuddhi ho rahI hai. vartamAname.n to, mai.n rAgarUp ho gayA, dveSharUp ho gayA, aise usakI pariNati, aisI mAnyatA ho gayI hai.