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pahane the. devake rUpame.n the. aise pahachAname.n Aye ki ye gurudev hai.n. gurudev devake rUpame.n hI the.
gurudevane kahA ki aisA kuCh nahI.n rakhanA, mai.n yahI.n hU.N. devame.n virAjatA hU.N, (lekin) mai.n yahI.n hU.N, aisA rakhanA. aisA gurudevane kahA. aisA hAth karake kahA. aisA huA ki ye sab kaise (samAdhAn kare)? gurudevane javAb nahI.n diyA. gurudevane do-tIn bAr kahA ki mai.n yahI.n hU.N, aisA hI mAnanA. mai.n yahI.n hU.N, aisA gurudevane kahA.
... svapna vaishAkh shukla-2kA thA. bAdame.n.n kahA. gurudevane kuCh javAb nahI.n diyA, sun liyA. gurudevane kahA, maname.n aisA nahI.n rakhanA, mai.n yahI.n hU.N. merA astitva hai, aisA hI mAnanA. hAth aise karake kahA. gurudev devake rUpame.n the. hUbahU devake rUpame.n. devake vastra, mugaT sab devake rUpame.n thA.
mumukShuH- to bhI pahachAn liyA ki ye gurudev hI hai.n.
samAdhAnaH- hA.N, guredav hI hai.n, dev nahI.n hai. mai.n yahI.n hU.N, aisA mAnanA. mai.n kadAchit mAnU.n, lekin aise kaise mAn le.n? aisA vichAr to Aye. ye sab kaise (mAne)? ye bechAre kaise mAne? gurudev kuCh bole nahI.n. parantu gurudevakA atishay prasar gayA. us vakta sabako aisA ho gayA. nahI.n to har sAl sabake hR^idayame.n duHkh hotA thA. us vakta ekadam ullAs-se sab karate the.
gurudevane kahA, aisA maname.n nahI.n rakhanA. us vakta svapname.n bahut pramod thA. us ekadam tAjA thA na. mai.n yahI.n hU.N. gurudevakI Aj~nA huyI, phir kuCh...
gurudev shAshvat rahe, mahApuruSh... alag thI. mai.n to unakA shiShya hU.N. unho.nne jo mArgakA prakAsh kiyA, vah kahanekA hai. sAkShAt gurudev hI lage, devake rUpame.n. aisA kuCh nahI.n rakhanA. mai.n yahI.n hU.N, aisA mAnanA. kaise padhAre? kaise padhAre? gurudev padhAro, padhAro aisA maname.n hotA thA. pUrI rAt andar aisI bhAvanA rahA karatI thI, gurudev padhAro, padhAro. phir prAtaHkAlame.n gurudev Upar-se devake rUpame.n padhAre ho.n, aisA (svapna AyA). gurudev padhAre.