Benshreeno Gnan Vaibhav-Gujarati (English transliteration). 2. Jati smaran gyan; Hastakshar; 1. Hastakshar; 2. Hastakshar.

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kahe ‘hajI kAi samajANun nahi.’ tyAre bahenashrI pharIne kahe ‘chappu Apo
ne!’- em, temanI madhur bhAShA sAmbhaLavA mATe, pharI pharIne bolAvatA.

teo svabhAve naram paN eTalAn ja hatAn. mALAmAn nIche pANInA

sahiyArA naL hatA. tyAn pANI bharavA jAy to teo ek bAju UbhAn rahe.
temano vAro Ave to paN pote bhIDanI andar jaine bharI shake nahi. pachhI evI
chhAp paDI gayelI ke bIjAn baheno, je tyAn hoy te, kahe ‘champAne pANI bharI
levA do! te to ek bAju UbhI ja raheshe, pANI nahi bharI shake.’ bahenashrI
pahelethI AvAn naram svabhAvanAn hatAn. AvA ghaNA sadguNo temanAmAn hatA.

bahenashrIne bALapaNathI ja sadguNI vyaktio pratye prem hato, temAny

satIonun to khUb AkarShaN. ‘satImanDaL’ nAmanun pustak temane inAmamAn
maLel hatun; temAnthI satIonAn charitro teo vAnchatAn tathA keTalIk satIonAn
charitro sambandhI rAs- garabA teo mALAnA chogAnamAn gavarAvatAn ane
anya bALAo jhIlatI. bIjAn paN naitik pustako, sadAcharaNanAn pustako
teo vAnchatAn. evAn sArAn sArA pustako vAnchavAno temane pahelethI ja prem
hato. temaNe dhArmik abhyAs ghare beThAn beThAn vAnchIne, athavA koi bahenanI
sAthe sAmAyik-pratikramaN vagere karatAn te daramyAn karyo hato. dharmasthAnak
tyAn hatun, paN bahu dUr. tyAn bahArathI AvelA koi panDito vyAkhyAn vAnchatA,
paN te upadesh sAmbhaLavA javAnun to koik vAr banatun. koi vAr ghare bapore
sAmAyik kare ne rAtre pratikramaN kare.

shALAno abhyAs chhoDayA pachhI to teo bapore ghare sAmAyik

ghaNIvAr karatAn; tyAgavairAgyanI kriyAo paN karatAn. sAmAyikano pATh
shIkhelAn ne pratikramaN paN mukhapATh karelun. taduparAnt thokaDAmAn nav tattva, chha
kAyanA bol, danDak, gati-Agati, guNasthAn-e badhun, yathAshakti
vichArapUrvak, mukhapATh karelun. puchchhissuNan, bhaktAmar tathA kalyANamandir vagere
stotra kanThastha karyAn hatAn. bIjun dhArmik vAnchan paN karatAn. bahenashrI kahetAn “
tyAn panDit “lAlan’ nun ek pustak hatun. temAn em Avatun ke ‘Ankh bandh
karo, kAn bandh karo, andar je ek vichArak tattva chhe te AtmA chhe.’ te vAt
mane gamatI. te vichArak tattva koN chhe te samajavA

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hun prayatna karatI.” A rIte AtmA samajavAnI dhArmik lAgaNI temane
pahelethI ja hatI.

temanun chitta vairAgyathI ghaNun ja bhinjAyelun hatun. tethI temane dIkShA

levAnI bhAvanA nAnapaNathI ja hatI. nAnI vayathI ja temane antaramAn em

thatun ke ‘Avo manuShyabhav to koik vAr ja maLe chhe, A monghA
manuShyabhavano upayog to mokSha prApta karavA mATe ja karI levo joie. te

mATe mAre avashya dIkShA levI.’ Am temane dIkShAnI prabaL bhAvanA vartatI
hatI ane andaramAn draDh nirNay karel ke ‘mAre dIkShA to levI ja chhe.’ A

vAt temaNe potAnI ek bahenapaNIne kahI. bahenapaNI dvArA te vAt bahAr
paDI gai ane champAbenane Thapako maL‌yo ke-AvA shA vichAro kare chhe? tethI,

bhAvanA tIvra hovA chhatAn, dIkShA na lai shakAi; sharamAL ne naram prakRitine
lIdhe, tathA konI pAse dIkShA levI te nirNay nahi thai shakavAthI, dIkShAnI

bhAvanA sAkAr na thai shakI.

tyAr pachhI lagabhag chaud ke pandaramA varShe temane vaDhavAN AvavAnun

thayun. te pahelAn teo dar babbe ke traN-traN varShe vaDhavAN AvatAn ne be-
chAr mahinA rahetAn, ane pachhI karAnchI jatAn. paN pandaramA varShe vaDhavAN

AvyA pachhI to ghaNo samay tyAn ja pasAr karavAnun thayun. koi vAr moTA
bhAInA ghare vAnkAner jAy; karAnchI paN vachche jai AvelAn. temanun chitta

vairAgyathI bhinjAyelun to hatun ja, temAn temanI dharmabhAvanAne -deshamAn rahevA
daramiyAn-poShaN tem ja dishA maLe tevun thayun. temane pUjya gurudev pAsethI

vyAkhyAn dvArA tattvanI ghaNI vAto sAmbhaLavA maLI. gurudeve mokShamArganun je
yathArtha prarUpaN karyun hatun te men sAmbhaLelun, tattvagnAnanI yathArtha jhINI vAto-

samyagdarshananun mAhAtmya, AtmAno svabhAv, karma ane AtmAnun svatantra
pariNaman vagere ghaNI ghaNI vAto-sAmbhaLelI. te viShe hun ane bahenashrI charchA

karIe. hun temane tattvanI, vairAgyanI ke satpuruSh pratye bhaktinI je je vAt
karun te teo khUb rasapUrvak sAmbhaLe. temane te vAto khUb gamatI. pahelAn to

temane A vAto agharI lAgatI ne manamAn thatun ke A badhun she samajAy?
paN pachhI to temaNe te badhun bahu jhaDapathI pakaDI lIdhun ane gurudevanun

tattvagnAn andaramAn potAnA

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bhAvathI pote samajI lIdhun.

temanun jIvan prathamathI ja sAdhyalakShI hatun, ane te sAdhya mokShaprApti

hatun. tethI tattvane spaShTa kare ane vairAgya-upasham draDh kare evAn dhArmik

pustako vAnchavAn bahenashrIne gamatAn. te sivAy anya vAnchanamAn samay bilakul

na bagADatAn.

‘shrImad rAjachandra’ pustak e rIte hAthamAn Avyun ke-vi. san. 1982nI

sAlanA vaDhavANanA chAturmAs pachhI gurudev jyAre vihAr karavAnA hatA tyAre

vajubhAIe pUchhayun ke ‘mahArAj sAheb! Ap vihAr karo chho to ApanA

samAgamanA viyogamAn have amAre kayun pustak vAnchavun?’ tyAre teoshrIe

kahyun ‘shrImad rAjachandra’ vAncho. tethI te pustak vajubhAI pustakAlayamAnthI

lAvelA. mArA hAthamAn AvatAn te pustak mane khUb gamyun. eTale hun te

vAnchato; bahenashrI paN vAnchatAn; hun ane bahenashrI, sAthe besIne paN, te

pustak vAnchatAn; temAn prarUpelA dharmabodh viShe charchA paN karatAn temAn je

vichAro kahyA hoy te vichAratAn. bahenashrI temAn khUb ras letAn.

taduparAnt ‘karma ne AtmAno sanyog’ nAmanun ek pustak hatun. te

paN ame vAnchatAn ne vichAratAn. te pustak vajubhAIne dhArmik

abhyAsakramamAn pAThayapustak tarIke hatun. sthAnakavAsI jain konpharansa

taraphathI saurAShTramAn je parIkShA levAtI hatI tenun, te pAThayapustak hatun. tethI

te pustak gharamAn hatun. te mArA hAthamAn Avyun. tenI andar kahelI vAto

mane khUb gamatI. pAchhaLathI khabar paDI ke ‘karma ne AtmAno sanyog’ te,

koi svatantra maulik pustak nathI, paN ‘mokShamArgaprakAshak’ nAmanA digambar

jain granthanA bIjA adhikAranun lagabhag bhAShAntar ja temAn Apelun chhe. temAn

bahu tarkasangat ne sundar rIte siddhAnto samajAvyA chhe, je svAbhAvik rIte ja

ApaNane game. karmanun kArya shun, ATh karmanun prayojan shun, AtmA ane karma

banne svatantra chhe, mAtra temane nimitta-naimittik sambandh chhe-AvI ghaNI

vAto temAn pratItikar DhangathI samajAvI chhe. temAn spaShTa rIte samajAvyun chhe ke

bandhanA prakAramAn je prakRiti, pradesh, sthiti ne anubhAg chhe temAn je

prakRitibandh ne pradeshabandh chhe te gauN bandh chhe ane tenun kAraN yog chhe, tathA

je sthitibandh ne anubhAgabandh chhe te mukhya

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bandh chhe ane tenun kAraN kaShAy chhe. Ano artha e thayo ke bandh thavAmAn
kAyAdinI chapaLatA mahattvanI nathI paN kaShAyapariNAm mahattvanA chhe. A
vAt khUb nyAyasangat hovAthI mane bahu priy hatI; bahenashrIne paN te
gamatI. A rIte te pustak viShenI ghaNI ghaNI vAto ame banne bhAI-bahen
sAthe besIne vAnchatAn ane charchatAn. bahenashrIne paN te vAtomAn khUb ras
paDato. bIjAn paN koi koi pustak ame sAthe vAnchatAn ne vichAratAn. temAnthI
bahenashrIne, pUjya gurudev pAse je sAmbhaLelun tenI sArI pakaD AvelI.

hun to anirNay-dashAmAn raheto, vichAromAn ja aTakI jato; vichArathI

sAmAnyapaNe bese, parantu ‘Am ja chhe’ em nakkI na thAy. bahenashrIne to
te antaramAn nakkI ja thai jatun. teo tarat ja nirNay kare ane kahe ke-‘mane
to A ja vAt sAchI lAge chhe.’ ek vAr temanI sAthe koi charchA thatI
hatI tyAre men kahyun ‘krodh AtmAno svabhAv nathI’ e kai rIte nakkI
thAy? temaNe tarat ja kahyun krodh jo AtmAno svabhAv hoy to tenAthI
gnAnane puShTi maLavI joie; svabhAv ekabIjAne haNe nahi. parantu krodh
karIe tyAre gnAn kunThit thAy chhe; mATe te, AtmAno svabhAv nathI. kShamA
gnAnane rokatI nathI, mATe kShamA jIvano svabhAv chhe.

tyAr pachhI-kai sAlamAn te khabar nathI, kadAch moDe hashe-temaNe

paramAgamanA ek ati-mahattvapUrNa siddhAntamAn potAno draDh pratItibhAv
bhArapUrvak jAher karelo. men pUchhayun jIv jyAre ashuddhi kare tyAre paN tene
sAmarthya-apekShAe shuddhi rahe chhe e shAstrasammat hakIkat chhe. jIv rAgadveSh kare
ane te ja vakhate ek apekShAe-svabhAv -apekShAe shuddha! e kai rIte
hashe? temaNe draShTAnt ApIne kahyun ke-sAkarano gAngaDo kALIjIrInA bhUkAmAn
mUkyo hoy to shun sAkaranun gaLapaN jatun rahe chhe? upar-upar kaDavAsh Ave
paN andar to mIThAsh chhe. men kahyun te draShTAnt besatun nathI; kAraN ke AtmA
to ek akhanD padArtha chhe ane sAkar to anant paramANuono pinD chhe.
vachchenA paramANuone kALIjIrI aDI paN nathI, eTale te to gaLI rahe,
kaDavI kyAthi thAy? paN AtmA to ek akhanD padArtha chhe, temAn ek ja
samaye shuddha ne ashuddha-e be ekasAthe ek ja

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vastumAn kaI rIte hoI shake? temaNe kahyun draShTAnt besatun hoy ke na besatun
hoy paN tattva to em ja chhe ane mane em bese chhe.-em te kahetAn. Am
temane ghaNAn AdhyAtmik tathyo sahajapaNe andar besI jatAn.

A rIte temaNe ghaNA siddhAnto thoDA ja kALamAn pachAvyA. te khUb

rasapUrvak dhArmik vAto sAmbhaLatAn ane vichAratAn. Akho divas, gharanAn
kAmakAj vakhate paN, temane te ja vichAro chAlyA karatA. Akho divas bhAI
mArI sAthe besI rahe ane mane samajAve to sArun-em temane thayA karatun. hun
temane em kaheto ApaNe svatantrapaNe ne niShpakShapaNe vichAravun joIe.
‘jain’ mAn janmyA eTale te dharma sAcho chhe em mAnIne na chAlavun,
niShpakShapaNe vichAravun. niShpakShapaNe vichArIne paN temane to jain tattvagnAn ja
besatun. teo kahetAn hun madhyasthabhAve-niShpakShapaNe vichArun chhun to paN mane to
Am ja eTale ke jinendre kahyA anusAr ja satya lAge chhe.

hun te vakhate anya darshananAn pustako paN shakti pramANe, TAIm pramANe

vAnchato. shrImad rAjachandrajIe ‘yogavAsiShTha’ pustakanI bhalAmaN karI chhe
eTale ‘yogavAsiShTha’ nAn paN keTalAnk prakaraNo vAnchyAn hatAn. gAndhIjInA
vichAro khUb vAnchato. gItA vAnchelI. te uparAnt ‘rAmakRiShNa paramahans,’
‘rAmatIrtha’ ityAdinAn jIvanacharitro paN vAnchavA laI Avato. mane andar
em rahyA karatun ke ApaNe ‘satya shun chhe’-e nyAyapUrvak nakkI karavun joIe;
kem ke gAndhIjI jevA keTalAy moTA mANaso anya dharmamAn chhe, to anya dharma
khoTo hoy em ekadam kem kahevAy?-AvA vichAromAn hun aTavAyA karato,
tyAre bahenashrIne to saheje jainadharmamAn kahelA siddhAnto ja besI jatA. ‘mane
to A nyAyo ja bese chhe’ em te kahetAn. ame pelI vAtanI (jIvamAn
ashuddhi vakhate paN sAmarthya-apekShAe shuddhi kaI rIte rahe chhe-e vAtanI)
charchA to anek vAr karatAn.

tattvasambandhI vichAro spaShTa thAy tem ja tenun ghUnTaN thAy te hetuthI

ame tAttvik viShayo par nibandho-lekho lakhatAn; temAn pUjya bahenashrIe
nIchenA viShayo par lekho lakhyA hatA-(1) jagat shun ane A vichitratAnun
kAraN shun? (2) sukhanun sAchun svarUp ane teno sAcho upAy. (3) kayA
mArge chhun? (4)

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mokShanI AvashyakatA shI? (pa) deh ne AtmA judA shA nyAye? (6) karma
grahaN karavAno AtmAno sahaj svabhAv nathI. (7) dayA paN shubh rAg
chhe; AtmAno sahaj svabhAv nathI.

tyAr pachhI hun surat gayo tyAre mArA par temanA patro AvatA. temAn

teo potAnA dhArmik vichAro jaNAvatA. ‘uday ane udIraNAnun svarUp shun
chhe? be vachche sho taphAvat chhe? Aje hun AvavAno houn, paN jo na AvI
shakun to te uday kahevAy ke udIraNA? temAn mohakarma sho bhAg bhajave chhe?
temAn shAtAvedanIy karma athavA ashAtAvedanIy karma sho bhAg bhajave chhe?’
ityAdi bAbat hun vichArun ane lakhun, bahenashrI paN vichAre ane lakhe ke mane
Am bese chhe.-em temanA mukhyatve dhArmik patro AvatA.

jo ke bahenashrI Ajanma-vairAgI hatAn, mAre AtmAnun karI ja levun chhe

evI ugra bhAvanA temane bALapaNathI ja vartatI hatI ane teo anek
sadguNonA dhArak hatAn, to paN temane mokShamArganA puruShArthanI sAchI vidhi
hAth AvI te to AkhIye, paramopakArI gurudevanA param param pratApathI ja.
bahenashrInA hRudayamAn tAraNahAr gurudev pratye asIm pArAvAr bhakti chhe.
gurudevanA upakAronun varNan karatAn teo gadgad thaI jAy chhe. ‘hun to pAmar
chhun, badhuy gurudeve ja Apelun chhe, badhuy gurudevanun ja chhe’ em temanA
AtmAno pradeshe pradesh pokAre chhe.

evA paramopakArI gurudevanAn darshanano ane temanAn vyAkhyAnashravaNano

pratham pAvan yog bahenashrIne vaDhavANamAn shrI nAraNabhAInI dIkShA prasange vi.
san. 198pamAn prApta thayo hato. te prasange thoDA divas pUjya gurudevanAn
tattvagnAnabharapUr puruShArthaprerak pravachano sAmbhaLI bahenashrIne atyant Anand
thayo hato.

pachhI, bIjI vAr bahenashrIne bhAvanagaramAn ghaNA vyAkhyAnashravaNano

yog prApta thayo hato. bhAIshrI vajubhAI bhAvanagaramAn Ijaner tarIke nokarI
karatA hatA tyAre bahenashrI tyAn gayA hatAn ane gurudevanI paN te vakhate
bhAvanagaramAn sthiti hatI. bahenashrI khUb ekAgratAthI gurudevanAn vyAkhyAn

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sAmbhaLatAn ane ghare AvIne lakhI letAn. te lakhAN dAsabhAInA
(puruShottamadAs kAmadAranA) vAnchavAmAn Avyun ane vAnchI bahu ja khushI thayA.
temaNe gurudevane kahyun ‘sAheb! vajubhAInAn ek bahen chhe, te Apanun vyAkhyAn
ghare jaIne badhun lakhI le chhe; eTalun sundar lakhe chhe ke nyAy kayAny jarA paN
maraDAto nathI ke koI nAnI hakIkat paN chhUTI jatI nathI.’ pachhI ek vAr
gurudev vajubhAIne tyAn AhAr vahoravA padhAryA hatA tyAre AhAr vahorAvatI
vakhate bahenashrInA shAnta, dhIragambhIr yog vagere uparathI gurudevane temanI
sanskAritA ane supAtratAno khyAl AvI gayo; ane upAshraye dAsabhAIne kahyun
ke-men vajubhAInAn bahenane joyAn. bahen sanskArI chhe.’

bahenashrI tyAr pachhI vInchhiyA gayA hatAn, porabandar gayA hatAn,

jAmanagar gayA hatAn-em jude jude gAm gayA hatAn. teo gurudevanun je
sAmbhaLe te upalak sAmbhaLIne kADhI na nAkhe, parantu tenA upar barAbar
vichAr karatAn. potAnA jIvanamAn kem utAravun-e hetuthI te sAmbhaLatAn. bhale
mAtra pAnch-sAt divas sAmbhaLI Ave, paN antaramAn manthan karI tenun rahasya
grahI letAn.

bahenashrIne gurudevanA pravachanashravaNanA pratApe agAuthI-samakit thayA

pahelAn varSha-be varSha AgaLathI-andarathI jor AvavA mADayun ke ‘mAre samakit
to levun ja chhe, A bhavamAn samakit na laIe to A manuShyapaNun shA
kAmanun? samakit thashe ja...samakit levun ja chhe.’ ek vAr men pUchhayun champA!
samakit keTalun dUr chhe? to koNI sudhIno hAth batAvIne kahe ‘ATalun.’-
Am vishvAsathI kahyun. mane manamAn thayun ke ‘bahenane samakit shI chIj chhe
tenI pUrI khabar lAgatI nathI. samakit thatAn to siddhabhagavAn jevA
atIndriy Anandano anshe anubhav thAy. paN bahen samakitane sAmAnya
chIj gaNIne kahetI lAge chhe.’ pachhI hun bIjI vAr vekeshanamAn suratathI pAchho
vaDhavAN (ke vAnkAner) Avyo tyAre pharIne me pUchhayun champA! have samakit
keTalun dUr chhe?’-to ardho hAth batAvIne te kahe ke ‘ATalun’-Am temane
andarathI evun jor Avatun’ ane potAne pragati thaI rahI chhe em paN
bhAsatun.

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vi. san. 1989nA kAratak mAsamAn pUjya gurudevanAn darshan ne vANIno

lAbh levA ame bhAIbahen jAmanagar gayA hatAn ane tyAn traN divas rahyAn
hatAn.

tyAn men gurudevane pUchhayun hatun ke-‘be jIvone AThey karmanAn prakRiti,

pradesh, sthiti, anubhAg ne uday vagere badhun sarakhun hoy to te be jIvo te
samaye sarakhA bhAv kare ke judA bhAv kare? ‘gurudeve kahyun judA bhAv kare.’
men kahyun ‘svabhAv to sarakhA chhe ane bannene karmanA prakAromAn paN badhun
sarakhun chhe to pachhI shun kAm judA bhAv kare?’ teno javAb ApatAn gurudeve
kahyun ‘akAraN pAriNAmik dravya chhe;’ arthAt jenun koI kAraN nathI evA
bhAve svatantrapaNe pariNamatun dravya chhe, tethI tene potAnA bhAv svAdhInapaNe
karavAmAn kharekhar koN rokI shake? te svatantrapaNe potAnun badhun karI shake chhe.

uparanI prashnotarI vakhate ek niyativAdI sheTh ke, jeo niyati par

jor ApIne puruShArtha uDADatA, te tyAn beThA hatA. upAshrayanI bahAr nIkaLIne
men te sheThane kahyun sheTh! pUjya mahArAj sAhebe jIvanI svAdhInatAnun kevun sundar
spaShTIkaraN karyun? sheTh kahe “mAre mahArAj sAthe A ja vAndho chhe.
kAnajImahArAj ‘pAnch samavAy’ mAnatA nathI ne hun to pAnchey samavAy mAnun
chhun” men kahyun “pAnche samavAy mAne to paN samAn-vajanapaNe to koI na
mAnI shake. tame niyatinI mukhyatA mAno chho ne teo puruShArthanI mukhyatA
mAne chhe. te be vAtamAn kaI vAt nyAyasangat chhe? ‘potAnA bhAv, pote kare te
pramANe thAy’ te vAt barAbar chhe ke ‘niyati’ e ThokI besADayun hoy te
pramANe thAy-te vAt barAbar chhe? tamArI mAnyatAmAn paN pAnchanun samAn
vajan to rahetun nathI; pAnchamAn tame ‘niyati’ ne mukhya mAno chho ane
mahArAj sAheb ‘puruShArtha’ ne mukhya mAne chhe.” sheTh pAse koI uttar nahoto.

pUjya mahArAj sAheb samakSha je charchA-vAto thAy te hun amArA

utAre jaIne bahenashrIne kaheto. A svAdhInatA ane puruShArthanI vAt paN
karI. te sAmbhaLI bahenashrI pramudit thayAn. bahenashrIno paN, gurudevanI jem,
puruShArtha ja jIvanamantra chhe.

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jAmanagar traN divas rahIne tyAnthI pAchhA pharatAn bahenashrI khUb

vairAgyamAn AvI gayA hatAn mane kahyun hatun paN kharun ke ‘samay chAlyo jAy
chhe; have to samakit mATe khUb puruShArtha karavo chhe.’ e vachano pramANe
kharekhar temaNe ugra puruShArtha karIne chAr mahinAmAn (vi. san. 1989nA phAgaN
vad dashamanA mangaL dine) nirvikalpa samakit prApta karyun, bhavabhramaNano bhay
bhAngyo, antaramAn anantakALasthAyI shAshvatI nirAnt thaI gaI.

amArA gharamAn pahelethI ja sadAchAr tem ja sampradAy pramANenun dhArmik

vAtAvaraN to hatun ja. pitAshrI saraL, shuddha naitik jIvanavALA ane atyant
pramANik hatA tathA anukULatA pramANe savAre vyAkhyAn sAmbhaLavA tem ja sAnje
pratikramaN karavA jatA. mAtushrI tejasvI buddhivALAn, visheSh dhArmik vRuttivALAn
ane vIryavALAn hatAn; dhArmik kriyAomAn sAro ras letAn. mAtApitAne
gulAbachandajI mahArAj upar ghaNI shraddhA-bhakti hatI. te mahArAj ghaNun kaShTa
veThIne bahu AkarA AchAr pALatA. pUjya gurudev paN kahetA ke gulAbachandajI
bahu AkarI kriyA pALatA. temanI asarathI amArA kuTumbamAn dhArmik sanskAro
sArA hatA. vajubhAI to sAnje skUlathI AvIne skUlanI chopaDIo phenkIne,
turat upAshraye doDI jAy. teo upAshraye ghaNo TAIm gALatA; sAmAyik kare,
koI sAdhumahArAj hoy temanI pAse jaIne nav tattva, gati-AgatinA bol
vagere thokaDA ane sUtranI gAthAo vagere shIkhe, sAnje pratikramaN kare ne kay
Arek-sAdhunI jem AchAr pALavAnun ne vahorIne AhAr karavAnun sampradAyamAn vrat
kare chhe evun-dashamun vrat kare. akhil kAThiyAvAD sthAnakavAsI jain konpharansanI
parIkShA ApIne temAn te bIjA nambare uttIrNa thayA hatA. Akhun ‘dashavaikAlik
sUtra’ nAnI vayamAn mukhapATh karyun hatun.

AvA sadAchArI ane dharmapremI kuTumbamAn janmelAn bahenashrInAn sadAchAr

ane dharmaparAyaNatA to koI anerI bhAt pADe evAn prathamathI ja hatAn.
bAlyAvasthAthI ja temanA dehamAn upashamarasanA DhALA DhaLI gayA hatA. A
manuShyabhavamAn jaladI mokSha mATeno puruShArtha pragaT karI bhavabhramaN TALavAnI
temane

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tIvra jhankhanA rahetI hatI. taduparAnt anek sadguNonA teo niketan hatAn.

teo pUjya gurudeve shIkhavelA tattvagnAn anusAr shAstravAnchan

karatAn, tadanusAr vichAr-manthan karatAn, nirNayanI draDhatA mATe udyam karatAn tathA
svaparanA bhedagnAnano tem ja dhyAnano abhyAs karatAn.

teo vAramvAr maun dhAraN karatAn. kuTumbIjano sAthe paN bahu ja

ochhun bolatAn. bahudhA potAnA Antarik AtmakAryamAn ja rat rahetAn.

teo svabhAvathI ja bahu ekAnta-priy hatAn. ekAntamAn besIne

vAnchan-manan-dhyAn karavAnun temane ati priy hatun [samyadarshan prApti karyA

pachhI san. 1990mAn teo surat AvyA hatAn tyAre paN teo bIje mALe
oraDAmAn Akho divas ekAntamAn rahIne gnAn-dhyAn karyA karatAn. tyAnnA
temanA chAr mAsanA vasavAT daramyAn teo bhAgye ja ek vAr paN ghar
bahAr nIkaL‌yAn hoy. Akho divas ekAntamAn adhyAtmaratapaNe potAnun andaranun
kAm karatAn thAkatAn ja nahi.)

te uparAnt teo upavAs kare, lUkhun khAy, bhojanamAn alpa dravyo ja

vApare. keTalIk vAr ghaNA divaso sudhI mAtra chhAsh-roTalA sivAy kAI na
le.-AvI AvI kAyakaShTanI kriyAo paN kare, ane kahe ke AmAn shI moTI
vAt chhe? narak-tiryanchagatimAn jIve parAdhInapaNe keTalun sahan karyun chhe?

gharanun kAmakAj karatAn paN-rasoy karatAn, kapaDAn dhotAn ke pANI bharatAn

paN-temane samyaktvaprAptinI athavA nij gnAyakabhagavAnanAn darshananI UnDI
khaTak rahyA ja karatI. sansArathI teo ghaNAn udAsIn rahetAn.

‘bahun puNya kerA punjathI’ e kAvya bahenashrI vAramvAr vairAgyabhAve

gAtAn ane temAnthI ‘hun koN chhun, kayAnthI thayo, shun svarUp chhe mArun kharun’
ityAdi bhAg par bahu UnDANathI chintan karatAn. ‘dUr kAn prabhu doD tun, mAre
ramat ramavI nathI’-e prabhumilananI jhUraNAnun gIt, athavA ‘kanchanavaraNo
nAh re mune koI milAvo’ e nij gnAyakabhagavAnanA virahadukhanun gIt
ati vedanapUrNa bhAve gAtAn men bahenashrIne anek vAr sAmbhaL‌yAn chhe.
sangatyAgI, angatyAgI, vachanatarangatyAgI,

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manatyAgI, buddhityAgI, ApA shuddha kIno hai’ e pad tathA ‘kAyAnI visArI
mAyA svarUpe samAyA evA, nirgranthano panth bhav-antano upAy chhe’ e pad,
svarUpamAn samAI javAnI bhAvanAmAn taraboL thaIne teo anek vAr
lalakAratAn. ‘mohin lAgI lagan gurucharaNanakI’-e bhaktigIt gurudevanA
satsanganI ugra bhAvanAthI bhinjAIne teo ghaNI vAr bhAvavibhorapaNe gAtAn.

pUjya bahenashrIne vAramvAr evA bhAv AvatA ke-kAl gaI, Aj

gaI, em karatAn karatAn pandar-sattar varSha chAlyAn gayA; jindagI jatAn shI vAr
lAgashe? mATe pramAd chhoDI, tattvavichArapUrvak pAko nirNay karI, tvarAthI
AtmaprApti karI levA yogya chhe, pramAd karavA yogya nathI.

vaLI temane evun jor paN Avatun ke ‘A bhavamAn ja pAko nirNay

karIne avashya samakit levun chhe.’ ‘jarUr samakit thashe ja’ em temane
andarathI vishvAs Avato.

-Am vividh prakAranA udyam-pariNAme pariNamI, game tem karIne

samyak puruShArthane pahonchI vaLI, pUjya bahenashrIe Akhare vi. san. 1989nA
phAgaN vad dashamanA pavitra dine vAnkAnneramAn nij gnAyakabhagavAnanAn mangal
darshan karyAn, apUrva sahajAnandanI pavitra anubhUti karI, siddhabhagavAnanA
vachanAtIt sukhano madhur svAd chAkhyo ane mokShamahelanAn mangaLamay dvAr
khUlI gayA.

samakit thayA pachhI thoDA divasamAn pUjya bahenashrIne pU. pitAshrI pAse

vaDhavAN javAnun thayun. chaitra mAsamAn tyAnthI pitAshrInun ek kauTumbik prasang
sambandhI posTa kArDa mArA par surat Avyun. temAn pAchhaLanA bhAgamAn pU.
bahenashrIe nIche pramANe lakhyun hatun-

“sansAr dukhamay chhe. mATe AtmAne puruShArtha karI temAnthI tArI

levAnI jarUr chhe. pramAd karavo yogya nathI. jain darshan satya chhe em men to
jANyun chhe. tame paN pramAd chhoDI, vairAgya vadhArI vichArasho to em ja
jaNAshe. pramAd kartavya nathI.”

ame to bahu toLI-toLIne shabdo bolatAn; eTale temaNe je Am

lakhyun ke

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‘jain darshan satya chhe em men to jANyun chhe.’ temAnthI mane em thayun ke “shun
bahenane samyagdarshan thayun hashe? nahi to ‘jain darshan satya chhe em men to
jANyun chhe’ evun, ATalA jorapUrvak te kem lakhI shake?” men pachhI kAgaL
lakhyo“bahen champA! tun lakhe chhe ke ‘jain darshan satya chhe em men to jANyun
chhe’ to shun tane samakit thayun chhe? kAraN ke samakit vinA ATalA jorapUrvak
AvA shabdo nIkaLe nahi.” teno patra Avyo ke-‘AtmAne paribhramaNano
kinAro AvI gayo chhe.’ te patramAn bIjun visheSh shun lakhel te atyAre
khyAlamAn nathI, kAraN ke te patra khovAI gayo chhe. “sansAr dukhamay chhe...jain
darshan satya chhe...pramAd kartavya nathI.”-em jemAn lakhyun hatun te posTa kArDa to
hajI paDayun chhe. pelA bIjA patramAnnun ek vAkya-‘A AtmAne paribhramaNano
kinAro AvI gayo chhe’ eTalun mane yAd rahI gayun chhe, AgaLapAchhaL nun
lakhAN yAd nathI. bahenashrIe ‘samakit thayun chhe’-em na lakhyun; pote namra
ne! tethI namratAbhAvathI bharelA mAtra eTalA shabdo nIkaL‌yA ke ‘A AtmAne
paribhramaNano kinAro AvI gayo chhe.’

pachhI hun suratathI vekeshanamAn vaDhavAN jyAre Avyo tyAre men pUjya

bahenashrIne pUchhayun ke samakit thatAn shun thAy? to kahe ‘sharIr to AtmAthI
sAv bhinna lAge, parano ne vibhAvano kartAbhAv chhUTI jAy, siddhabhagavAnanA
atIndriy sukhanI vAnagI pragaTe ne antaramAn AnandanA sAgar UchhaLe.’-
em, kahevA jeTalun kahyun.

samyagdarshan prAptinI AnandakArak vAt paramopakArI pUjya gurudevane

jaNAvavA mATe bahenashrI ne hun thoDA divas pachhI rAjakoT gayA; sAthe sushIlA
paN hatI. bahenashrIno vichAr te vAt gurudevane ekAntamAn kahevAno hato. te
vakhate ekAnta na maL‌yun eTale ame pAchhAn AvyAn. pachhI, mArun vekeshan pUrun
thaI gayun eTale hun to surat gayo.

pUjya bahenashrI vAnkAner hatAn. te vakhate dAsabhAI (puruShottamadAs

kAmadAr) vAnkAner AvyA. ‘ahInthI hun gurudevanA darshan karavA rAjakoT jAun
chhun’ em temaNe kahyun. bahenashrIe te avasar laI lIdho ane kahyun ke

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‘mAre paN darshan karavA Avavun chhe.’ em kahIne bahenashrI dAsabhAI sAthe
rAjakoT gayA. bhAbhI paN sAthe gayA. bahenashrIno vichAr gurudevane
ekAntamAn kahevAno hato eTale sadaranA upAshraye andar jaIne pahelAn
dAsabhAIne kahyun ‘tame jarA AghA UbhA raho.’ dAsabhAI, dUrathI joI shake
e rIte, AghA UbhA rahI gayA. bahenashrI gurudev pAse gayA, ne bhAvathI
darshan karIne vinayapUrvak namratAthI bolyAn ‘sAheb! ApanA pratApe mane
AtmasAkShAtkAr thayo chhe.’ gurudev kahe ‘dAsabhAI! ahIn orA Avo;’ kem
ke bairAn sAthe ekalA gurudev vAto na kare ne! pachhI gurudeve, je pUchhavun hatun te
bahenashrIne pUchhayun ‘bahen! tamane AtmasAkShAtkAr thatAn shun thayun? bahenashrIe
kahyun ‘AtmA akartA thaI gayo; kartRutva chhUTI gayun ne gnAtA thaI gayo.’-
ityAdi kahyun. mAtra svalpa prashnonA uttarothI ja pUro santoSh thaI javAthI
visheSh kAI pUchhavAne badale gurudev TharI gayA, shAnta-shAnta thaI gayA ane
thoDI kShaN pachhI gambhIr thaIne svagat gaNagaNyA ‘oho! AtmA kyAn strI
ke puruSh chhe? AtmA kyAn bALak ke vRuddha chhe?’

(bahenashrIne te vakhate mAtra ogaNIshamun varSha chAlatun hatun.)

potAne paribhramaNano kinAro AvI gayAnI AnandakArI vAt, upar

pramANe paramopakArI gurudev samakSha pramodapUrvak prastut karIne, pUjya bahenashrI
pAchhAn vAnkAner (moTA bhAI vajubhAI ne tyAn) padhAryAn.

have pachhI (san 1989thI) dar varShe pUjya gurudev je gAmamAn chAturmAs

rahyA hoy te gAmamAn teoshrInAn kalyANakArI vyAkhyAnono lAbh levA arthe
pUjya bahenashrIe chAr mahinA rahevAnun sharU karyun. bahen shAntAben to e
pramANe rahetAn ja hatAn. pUjya gurudeve temane kahyun ‘A bahen (champAben)
bahu pAtra chhe, gambhIr chhe, vichArak chhe, UnDap chhe, ane vairAgI chhe, Tharel chhe;
tamane lAbh thAy tevAn chhe. tamAre lAbh levA jevo chhe.’-Am pUjya gurudeve
bhalAmaN karI. e rIte pUjya bahenashrI (champAben) ane bahen shAntAbenano
chAturmAsamAn sAthe rahevAno yog sharU thayo.

pUjya gurudeve vi. san. 1991mAn sonagaDh madhye ‘parivartan’ karyun.

tyArapachhI

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san. 1994mAn vaishAkh vad AThamanA dine svAdhyAyamandiranA udghATan samaye
ame banne bhAIo mATe ek yAdagAr prasang banyo. pUjya gurudev te divase
pravachanamAn draDhatAthI bolyA ke-“kundakundAchAryadev mahAvidehamAn gayA hatA ne
samavasaraNamAn shrI sImandharabhagavAnanI vANI sAmbhaLavA mATe tyAn ATh divas
rahyA hatA.-A badhI najare joyelI vAt chhe; koI mAne ke na mAne paN A
vAt satya chhe.”-AvI matalabanun lagabhag bolyA. vajubhAI ne hun vichAr
karIe ke-gurudev Aje pravachanamAn, ‘A vAt Am ja chhe’ vagere ATalun
badhun jorapUrvak shun bolyA? bhAI kahe ApaNe gurudevane pUchhavA jaIe. ame
bahenashrIne kahyun ke-gurudev Aje pravachanamAn Avun k kje bolyA te viShe
amAre temane pUchhavA javun chhe. bahenashrI kahe ‘jAv.’ bahenashrIne manamAn em
ke bhAIo k kjANe to temane lAbhanun kAraN thAy; mAre to kahevun ja
nathI, mahArAjasAhebane kahevun hashe to kaheshe; tethI kahe ‘bhale jAv.’

ame pUjya gurudev pAse gayA ne temane pUchhayun ‘sAheb! Aje

pravachanamAn Ape ‘A najare joyelI vAt chhe’ vagere shun kahyun? pahelAn to
gurudeve, ‘evun angat-vyaktigat kAI pUchhavAnun na hoy’ em jarA jorathI
kahyun. sAmbhaLI ame maun thaI gayA ane gurudev sAthe svAdhyAyamandiranI
osarImAn AnTA mAravA lAgyA. pachhI gurudev pAT upar beThA, ame temanI
pAse nIche besI gayA. beThA pachhI pUjya gurudeve thoDI TUnkI TUnkI vAto karI.
gurudev, gambhIr thaIne, bolyA bahenane (bahenashrI champAbenane) san. 1993mAn
chaitra vad AThamanA dine, anubhavamAnthI bahAr AvatAn, pUrvabhavanun
jAtismaraNagnAn thayun chhe. kundakundAchAryadev mahAvidehamAn sImandharabhagavAnanA
samavasaraNamAn padhAryA hatA. tyAre bahen ne ame tyAn hatAn. hun tyAn rAjakumAr
hato.-Am bahenane smaraNamAn Avyun chhe. mane andarathI Avatun ke ‘hun
rAjakumAr chhun, makhamalanAn ne jarInAn vastro paheryAn chhe,-vagere.’ paN bahene
kahyun eTale ghaNun spaShTa thayun, pAkun thayun. bahen sheThanA dikarA hatA.-ityAdi TUnkI
TUnkI thoDI vAto karI. paN sAthe em paN kahyun ke-‘A vAt koIne kahevAnI
nathI...koIne nahi.’ vajubhAIne te vakhate bahenashrI upar eTalA badhA bhAv
AvI gayA ke temaNe harShAshru sAthe gadgad svare kahyun ‘sAheb!

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bahenashrIne vandaNA karavAnI to chhUT Apo.’ gurudev kahe ‘nA; temane paN
nahi, koIne nahi; kem ke lokomAn bahAr khabar paDI jAy, shankA thAy ke
bhAIo vandaNA kare chhe mATe k klAge chhe!’

pachhI bahenashrI pAse jatAn temaNe amane pUchhayun ‘shun tame gurudev pAse

jaI AvyA? ame hasatAn hasatAn kahyun ‘gurudeve tamane paN kahevAnI nA pADI
chhe.’ toy ame to, bahenashrIe ja svayam gurudevane kahelI vAt temane paN
kahevAnI gurudeve ‘nA’ kahI tethI thayelA Ashcharya sAthe, temane badhun kahI dIdhun...

have tyAr pachhInun to badhun jANItun chhe. pahelAnnun jeTalun yAd Avyun

teTalun kahyun bAkI prasango to ghaNA banyA hoy, paN yAdashakti ochhI ane te
prasangone ghaNAn varSho vItI gayA tethI ghaNA prasango yAd na hoy.

(sabhAmAnthI prashna- ‘A AtmAne paribhramaNano kinAro AvI gayo

chhe’- e lakhANavALA patrano tame sho uttar lakhyo te yogya lAge to kahevA
vinanti.)

paribhramaNanA kinArAvALo patra maL‌yA pachhI men temane A pramANe

lakhyun hatun-

“bahen champA,
kAgaL vAnchI ne hun to ding thaI gayo chhun. koI ne koI jAgyA ja

kare chhe em jANIne harSha thAy chhe. pAnchamA ArAnA ant sudhI shAsan jIvatun
chhe. kahe chhe ke A kALamAn sant maLavA durlabh chhe. hun to santane maLavA-
shodhavA-na gayo to sant mAre tyAn padhAryA hoy em lAge chhe! ATalI
durlabhatAo maLI chhatAn jo kAI na thAy to kono vAnk?

mArI shankAo shun shun chhe, hun kayAn aTakun chhun, mAro svabhAv, mArI

nirbaLatAo-badhun tArI jAN bahAr nathI. ‘nishAnI kahA batAvun re, tero
agam agochar rUp’ evA javAb karatAn ghaNI vadhAre AshA hun rAkhun chhun”

- A pramANe, apUrva sAnandAshcharyanI UnDI lAgaNI vyakta karatA shabdo

patramAn lakhAI gayA hatA.

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kharekhar A kALe paramArthane anukUL sarva yog ApaNane samprApta

thayA chhe- te ApaNun param param sadbhAgya chhe. ApaNane bAhya yog
maLavAmAn to kAI nyUnatA rahI nathI; have puruShArtha to ApaNe ja karavAno
rahe chhe. svAnubhUtiyugapravartak pUjya gurudevano, chetanane jagADanAro
svAnubhUtibharyo madhur raNakAr varSho sudhI ApaNane sAmbhaLavA maL‌yo, tem ja
Aje paN prashamamUrti pUjya bahenashrInAn svAnubhUtirasataraboL sAhajik
vachanAmRutonun madhur shravaN maLI rahyun chhe, tenA jevun param ahobhAgya kayun?
have to je kAI khAmI chhe te ApaNA puruShArthanI ja chhe. gnAnIonA pratApe
ApaNane sAcho puruShArtha AvaDI jAy-e ja antaranI bhAvanA chhe.

svAnubhUtipariNat paramopakArI pUjya gurudevanAn tem ja

svAnubhUtipariNat paramopakArI pUjya bahenashrInAn pavitra charaNakamaL sadAy
hRudayamAn sansthApit raho.

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mIThI mIThI videhanI vAt tAre ur bharI;
am Atma ujALanahAr, dharmaprakAshakarI.

sImandhar–gaNadhar–santanA, tame satsangI;
am pAmar tAraN kAj padhAryAn karuNAngI.

tuj gnAn–dhyAnano rang am Adarsha raho;
ho shivapad tak tuj sang, mAtA! hAth graho.

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AtmArthIone upakArI evun pUjya bahenashrI champAbenanun

jAtismaraNagnAn

adhyAtmayugapravartak paramapUjya sadgurudev shrI kAnajIsvAmInA

sadgnAnavairAgyabodhak adhyAtmopadeshano anupam lAbh pAmIne

jemaNe 18 varShanI laghu vayamAn nijAtmAnubhUtiyukta

samyagdarshan prApta karyun chhe ane pUjya gurudevanI
upakAr-chhAyAmAn jemane AtmasAdhanAnI vishuddhi

vRuddhingat thaI rahI chhe, evAn prashamamUrti

bhagavatImAtA pUjya bahenashrI champAbenane

vi. san. 1993 chaitra vad AThamanA dine

svAtmadhyAnamAn beThAn hatAn tyAre

pUrvabhavanun spaShTa jAtismaraNagnAn

sharU thayun chhe, je anukrame vRuddhigat thatAn

anek bhavo ane lokottar visheShatAonA satya

tem ja ati spaShTa nirmaL gnAnathI samRuddha thatun gayun chhe.

pUjya gurudevane AnI jAN thatAn, teoshrIne visheSh jANavAnI

bhAvanAne lIdhe, pUjya bahenashrI, anukrame jem jem, je yathAtath spaShTa smaraNamAn

Avatun gayun te lakhIne mokalatAn, ane tenI pratilipi potAnI

pAse rAkhatAn. te pratilipimAnthI atre A lakhAN Alekhik karavAmAn Avyun chhe.

AmAn je tithio ankit thayel chhe te koI to smaraN AvyAnA divasanI chhe

ane koI to lakhAN karyAnA divasanI athavA pUjya gurudevane vAnchavA mokalyAnA

divasanI chhe. pUjya bahenashrInun A divya gnAn AtmArthI jIvone, bhUt tem ja

bhAvI bhavonA astitvanI spaShTa pratIti karAvatun thakun, dhArmik shraddhAnI draDhatAnA

visheSh lAbhanun sAtishay nimitta bano - e ja bhAvanA.

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