chhe, jin vachan chhe. bhAI! tun rAgathI lAbh thavAnun mAne paN e to mithyA mAnyatA chhe, kem ke rAg tArA svarUpamAn ja nathI to te tane kem lAbhadAyak thAy? kharekhar to paryAyane grahavI-chhoDavI e vAt paN dravyamAn nathI; tyAn tun paranA je rAganAn grahaN-tyAg potAne mAne e to naryun mithyAtva chhe, kem ke paranAn grahaN-tyAg AtmAmAn chhe ja nahi. vichAr to kar. shun jIve rajakaNone pakaDayA chhe ke tene chhoDe? strI-kuTumb-parivAr, mahel-makAn-hajIrA ne dhanAdi sAmagrI vagerene shun jIve pakaDayAn chhe ke ene chhoDe? bIlakul nahi; ene pakaDayAny nathI, ne ene chhoDavAy nathI.
prashna– to dIkShA vakhate munirAj e badhun-gharabAr vagere chhoDe chhe ne? uttara– shun chhoDe chhe? gharabAr vagere badhun to jyAn chhe tyAn ja chhe. e to pahelAn e padArthomAn-gharabAr vageremAn-Asakti hatI te, vairAgyavisheSh thatAn svarUpalInatA draDh-gADh thavAthI, chhUTI jAy chhe to munirAje e badhun chhoDI dIdhun em kathanamAtra vyavahAr karavAmAn Ave chhe; bAkI paradravyanAn grahaN-tyAg vAstavamAn AtmAne chhe ja nahi; dIkShAkALe munirAjanA AtmAmAn kAI ghaT-vadh thAy chhe em chhe ja nahi. AvI vAt! samajANun kAI...? ahA! vastrAdine chhoDe ke AhArane grahaN kare evo chAritra paryAyano svabhAv nathI, chAritra paryAy to AtmalInatArUp chhe, temAn paranA grahaN-tyAg chhe ja nahi.
ahAhA...! bhagavAn AtmA chidAnand prabhu pUrNAnandano nAth chhe. tenAmAn kadIy ghaT-vadh na thAy evo teno tyAgopAdAnashUnyatva svabhAv chhe. ahAhA...! A tyAgopAdAnashUnyatvashakti chhe te dravya-guN-paryAy traNemAn vyApe chhe. A shakti dravyanI bIjI anant shaktimAn vyApak chhe, ne anant guNanI paryAyamAn paN A shaktinun rUp chhe. tethI to dravya-paryAyamAn ghaT-vadh thatI nathI, arthAt dravya-paryAyamAn paradravyanI ghUs-peTh thatI nathI.
bhAI! apUrNa shuddha ane pUrNa shuddha evo bhed paryAyamAn bhale ho; paN je apUrNa shuddha paryAy chhe tey ghaT-vadh rahit AkhA-pUrNa dravyane siddha kare chhe. tethI ek paryAyane paN na mAno to Akhun dravya siddha nahi thAy, kem ke sarva anant paryAyono pinD te dravya chhe. samajAy eTalun samajo bApu! A to gajabanI vAt chhe. A to khyAlamAn Ave tevun chhe, AnA pachhI agurulaghutvaguN nAmanI shaktinun sUkShma varNan Avashe. tenun svarUp to kevaLIgamya kahyun chhe.
bandh adhikAramAn (jayasenAchAryadevanI TIkA) Ave chhe ke bandhanA nAsh mATe Am bhAvanA karavI. shun! ke-‘hun nirvikalpa chhun, hun bharitAvastha chhun.’ bharitAvastha eTale paryAy nahi, paN bharitAvastha eTale nishchay shaktithI paripUrNa bharapur bharelo avasthit chhun. ahAhA...! AvI ghaT-vadh rahit anant shaktithI pUrNa bharapur sahaj shuddha gnAnAnandasvabhAvI prabhu hun chhun lyo, A bandhanA nAsh mATenI bhAvanA kahI chhe.
samvat 1964nI sAlamAn ame vaDodarA mAl levA gayelA. tyAre tyAn ‘sati anasUyA’ nAmanun nATak jovA gayelA. te nATakamAn Am vAt AvatI. anasUyAne putra nahoto. te jyAre svargamAn gaI to tene kahevAmAn Avyun ke- ‘अपुत्रस्य गतिर्नास्ति’-jene putra na hoy tenI sadgati thatI nathI. A to ek matanI AvI mAnyatA chhe, evun vastusvarUp chhe em na samajavun. ahIn to draShTAntamAtra vAt chhe. to svargamAn anasUyAne kahevAmAn Avyun ke-putra rahitane svargamAn sthAn na maLe, mATe nIche jA, ane pahelAn je koI puruSh sAmo maLe tene var. Am te nIche AvI ne pratham sAme maLanAr andh brAhmaN sAthe teNe lagna karyA. tene ek putra thayo. mAtA anasUyA putrane pAraNAmAn jhulAvatAn Am kahetI ke-‘beTA, shuddhoDasi, buddhoDasi, nirvikalpoDasi, udAsInoDasi’-beTA, tun shuddha chho, nirvikalpa chho, udAsIn chho. lyo, nATakamAn paN tyAre AvI vairAgyabharapur vAto kahevAtI. atyAre to ghaNI badhI garabaD thaI gaI chhe. are, jainamAn paN A vAt chAlatI nathI!
ahIn kahe chhe-trikALI dravyamAn kamI-vRuddhi thatI nathI. evo hun trikAL nirvikalpa, abhed, udAsIn chhun. ahAhA...! dharmI jIv em bhAve chhe ke-nitya niranjan shuddha chidAtmAnA samyak shraddhAn-gnAn-anuShThAnarUp, nishchay nirvikalpa samAdhithI utpanna, vItarAg sahajAnandarUp, sadAy anubhUtimAtrathI jANavAmAn Ave chhe evo hun svasamvadyamAn pUrNa chhun. ahAhA...! rAg-dveSh-mohathI rahit, dravyakarma-bhAvakarma-nokarmathI rahit, panchendriyanA viShay vyApArathI ne man-vachan-kAyanA vyApArathI rahit evo trikAL gnAnaras, Anandaras, shraddhAras, chAritraras, shAntaras- em anant guNonA rasathI bharit-pUrNa ek hun chhun. juo, A bhAvanA!