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samādhānaḥ- hān̐, use bhāvanā āve. mujhe jānā hai andar, puruṣārthakī gati mujh- se karanī hai, parantu bāharameṁ bhī mujhe nimitta satpuruṣakā nimitta ho, aisī bhāvanā (hotī hai). mujhe mārga batāye, mujhe kahān̐ jānā hai, vah sab mārga batānevāle sacce nimitta mere pās ho, aisī bhāvanā hotī hai. pratyakṣa satpuruṣake satsaṁgakī bhāvanā rahatī hai. phir bāharakā yog kitanā bane vah alag bāt hai, parantu aisī bhāvanā use hotī hai.
mumukṣuḥ- ..
samādhānaḥ- .. gurudev devake rūpameṁ hī the. ye gurudev haiṁ, aise pahacānā. aur gurudevake sab kapaḍe devake the. gurudevane aisā kahā ki, aisā kuch nahīṁ rakhanā. maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. phir, dūsarī bār kahā. gurudev aisā kahate haiṁ, maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. gurudevane phir-se kahā, maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. kahā, padhāro gurudev! aho..! aho! sadaguru.. maiṁne kyā kahā vah yād nahīṁ hai. padhāro gurudev! aisā kahā. phir gurudevane kahā, maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. phir kahā, mujhe kadācit aisā lage, lekin ye sab becāre gurudev, gurudev karate haiṁ. sabako kaise (samajhānā)? gurudev kuch bole nahīṁ. gurudevane itanā kahā ki maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. āpako aisā kuch nahīṁ rakhanā, maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n.
mumukṣuḥ- ham sabako aisā hī lagatā thā ki gurudev yahīṁ hai. parantu gurudevakī anupasthiti mālūm hī nahīṁ paḍatī.
samādhānaḥ- gurudev... kaun jāne aisā atiśay ho gayā. sabako aisā ho gayā. maiṁne turanta kisīko nahīṁ kahā thā. phir sabake manameṁ aisā ho gayā thā ki gurudev yahān̐ hai. svapnameṁ aisā lage ki gurudev hī hai.
mumukṣuḥ- ..
samādhānaḥ- aisā rakhanā hī nahīṁ. maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. do bār aisā kahā. phir kisī aurane kahā, gurudev aisā kahate haiṁ ki maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. gurudev kuch bole nahīṁ, parantu gurudevane itanā kahā, maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. maiṁ yahīṁ hūn̐, bahin! maiṁ yahīṁ hū̃n. manameṁ aisā calatā thā na, isaliye. .. āye ho na, aisā devakā pahanāvā. aur mudrāmeṁ gurudev jaisā lage aur dūsarī taraph-se dev jaisā lage. mugaṭ ādi, devakā rūp hotā hai na, devakā rūpa.
mumukṣuḥ- paṁcamakālameṁ dev āte haiṁ.
samādhānaḥ- ... isaliye maiṁ kahatī thī ki gurudev sab dekhate haiṁ. upayog rakhe to gurudevako sab dikhatā hai. gurudev yahān̐-se bhagavānake pās jāte haiṁ. ūpar-se sab dikhatā hai. vimānameṁ jāte haiṁ. mahāvideh, bharatakṣetra sab samīp hī hai. yahān̐ bagalameṁ mahāvideh kṣetra hai. parantu yahān̐ bīcameṁ pahāḍ ā gaye isaliye kuch dikhatā nahīṁ hai. sabakī śakti kam ho gayī hai.