228 hisābase. usakī bhāvanā thī.
samādhānaḥ- antaramen vikalpa-se chhūṭanā usamen to puruṣhārtha chāhiye.
mumukṣhuḥ- vah atyant kaṭhin lagatā hai.
samādhānaḥ- vah to puruṣhārtha-se (hotā hai). vaisā puruṣhārtha pragaṭ honā, utanī ugratā ho to hotā hai.
mumukṣhuḥ- kaisī ugratā?
samādhānaḥ- ugratā hī chāhiye. kahīn chain na paḍe, vikalpamen use chain na paḍe. kahīn chain na paḍe to hotā hai. vikalpakī jālamen bhī chain na paḍe, aisā honā chāhiye. kahīn sukh na lage. antaramen-se prāpta na ho tabatak chain na paḍe, utanī ugratā antaramen honī chāhiye.
.. mujhe bahut ānanda lagatā hai, mujhe bahut aisā lagatā hai, aise jo vikalpa āte hain, vah vikalpamen hī khaḍā hai. mujhe antaramen bahut bhāvamen bahut ānanda ātā hai, mujhe isakā bahut ras ātā hai, mujhe aisā bahut hotā hai. vah sab vikalpa hī hai, andar vikalpakā ānanda hai. chaitanyakā astitva-dravyamen-se ānanda chāhiye, vah ānanda alag hai, vah to sahaj ānanda hai. use vikalpa-se ānanda nahīn hotā, vah to sahaj ānanda hai. vikalpa nahīn hai ki mujhe bahut ānanda āyā yā mujhe yah prāpta huā, aisā vikalpa bhī jahān̐ chhūṭ jātā hai. jo sahaj ānanda pragaṭ hotā hai, vah antar-se bhinna paḍ jātā hai. andar bhinna hokar jo ānanda ātā hai, sahaj ānanda jo ātā hai. use kr̥utrimatā nahīn hotī ki mujhe isamen bahut ānanda āyā.
jisakī ānanda par bhī dr̥uṣhṭi nahīn hai, parantu sahaj ānanda ātā hai. ek apanā astitva grahaṇ karatā hai. ānanda sahaj andaramen-se pragaṭ hotā hai. vikalpa karake ānanda nahīn vedanā paḍatā. ... to pragaṭ hotā hai. vikalpakī dishā hai, usakī pūrī dishā palaṭ jānī chāhiye.
bhinna paḍanā vah puruṣhārtha alag rah jātā hai. abhī to kṣhaṇ-kṣhaṇamen bhedagnān (kare ki) vikalpa-se bhī main bhinna hū̃n. pahale to aisā bhedagnān honā chāhiye ki vikalpa- se bhī main bhinna hūn̐, aisī gnāyakakī dhārā pahale honī chāhiye, to nirvikalpa ho. vikalpa- se bhī main to bhinna hū̃n. aisī antaramen-se gnāyakakī dhārā (pragaṭ honī chāhiye).