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rAg hotA hai.
parantu bhedaj~nAn ho to alpa asthiratA rahatI hai. parantu vah samajhatA hai ki merI asthiratAke kAraN hai. vAstavik rUp-se koI iShTa nahI.n hai, koI aniShTa nahI.n hai. vah sab to parapadArtha hai. isaliye vah svaya.n puruShArthakI mandatAke kAraN gR^ihasthAshramame.n khaDe ho, to bhI asthiratAko jAne ki ye sab merI mandatAke kAraN hotA hai. vAstavik koI iShTa nahI.n hai, koI aniShTa nahI.n hai. use bhedaj~nAn vartatA hai.
mithyAtvame.n jo rAg-dveSh hote hai.n, vah use ekatvabuddhirUp (hote hai.n ki) ye mujhe ThIk hai aur ThIk nahI.n hai, ThIk hai, ThIk nahI.n hai. vah svaya.n rAg hI us jAtakA grahaN kar letA hai. koI nimitta mujhe ThIk hai, aThIk hai. usake mithyAtvake kAraN, aisI buddhi-ekatvabuddhike kAraN aisA chalatA hI rahatA hai.
usakI ekatvabuddhi TUTe ki vAstavik koI iShTa-aniShTa hai hI nahI.n, mai.n chaitanya bhinna j~nAyak hU.N. ye koI achChA nahI.n hai, bUrA nahI.n hai. mAtra apanI kalpanA-se aisI buddhi hotI rahatI hai. mai.n usase bhinna hU.N. isaprakAr bhinna honekA prayatna kare. phir alpa rAg rahatA hai vah usake puruShArthakI mandatAke kAraNa. ekatAbuddhiko toDanekA prayatna kare. bAhar use kuCh nahI.n ho to svaya.n hI andar aise vikalpa utpanna karatA hai, ekatvabuddhike kAraNa.
mumukShuH- satya bAt hai, apaneAp utpanna hote rahate hai.n. parapadArtha ho bhI nahI.n, to bhI (utpanna hote hai.n).
samAdhAnaH- svaya.n hI andar-se utpanna hote rahate hai.n.
mumukShuH- .... us vakta vibhAvarUp kyo.n pariNamatA hai?
samAdhAnaH- j~naptikriyA, parantu vah j~naptikriyA yathArtharUp kahA.N hai? j~napti j~naptirUp svaya.n rahatA nahI.n. karoti kriyA ho jAtI hai. mai.n ye sab karatA hU.N aur mujhase ye sab hotA hai. j~nAyakarUp rahe to j~naptikriyA barAbar kahe.n. parantu vah j~naptikriyA kahI.n svaya.nko jAnatA nahI.n hai. svaya.nko jAnatA ho, svako jAnanepUrvak par jAne to vah barAbar ho. parantu svako nahI.n jAnatA hai aur ye par sthUlarUp-se jAnatA hai. jo svako nahI.n jAnatA, vah dUsaro.nko yathArtha nahI.n jAnatA. isaliye j~naptikriyA hotI hai, parantu vah j~naptikriyA bhI use karotikriyA hai. vah sAkShI nahI.n rahatA hai. mAno.n mai.n usako kar detA hU.N, isake kAraN aisA hotA hai. jAnanA arthAt vah sthUlarUp-se jAnatA hai. vah yathArtha nahI.n jAnatA hai.
svako jAne to hI usane yathArtha jAnA kahaneme.n Aye. svako jAne binA jAnanA vah yathArtha nahI.n jAnatA. svako ChoDakar sabako jAne vah kuCh jAnanA nahI.n hai. svapUrvak