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samAdhAnaH- .. manaphUlAbahan hai na? Ashramame.n sab jagah toraN bA.Ndhe the. ek manaphUlA hai aur dUsare parNaphUlA hai. gogIdevIke nAmase thA na. ... kaun jAne kyA huA? kuCh yAd nahI.n hai. toraN bA.Ndhe the. sab kamareme.n Amake toraN bA.Ndhe the. yahA.N hamAre ghar Amake toraN bA.Ndhe the. kuCh nayA hI lagatA thA.

"mAre A.ngaNiye rUDA rAm rame...' anyamatame.n ek gAnA AtA hai na? mere A.nganame.n chAro.n or bhagavAn dikhate hai.n. vaise yahA.N gAnA gAte the, "mAre A.ngaNiye rUDA rAm rame...' (chAro.n or) bhagavAn dikhate hai.n, aisA lagatA thA. yahA.N hai na? bhagavAn dikhate hai.n na? chAro.n or mAnasta.nbha. jahA.N dekho vahA.N bhagavAn dikhate hai.n, aisA hote the. aise gurudevake sAnnidhyame.n Ashramame.n rahanA vah to kitanA mushkila. bahut jagah Ashram hoe.nge, para.ntu aise gurudevakI vANI milatI ho, aise Ashram to milane mushkil hai.

.. dhyey rakhanA. jIvaname.n ek dhyey rakhanA. dhyey-AtmA kaise pahachAname.n Aye? j~nAyak AtmA. jIvaname.n jo nirNay kiyA hai, us nirNayakI dR^iDhatAse Age baDhanA. andar puruShArtha ho vah puruShArtha karanA, bhedaj~nAnakA abhyAs karanA. shubhabhAvame.n dev-guru-shAstrakI ArAdhanA aur andar j~nAyakadevakI ArAdhanA aur mahimA. bas! bAkI sab vibhAvabhAvo.nko gauN kar denA aur j~nAyakadevako mukhya karake jIvan vyatIt ho. bas! yah ekI dhyeya. isI dhyeyakI dR^iDhatA. jo nakkI kiyA ki is prakAr jIvan vyatIt karanA hai. usI dhyeyakI dR^iDhatAse Age baDhanA hai.

shAstra svAdhyAy, dev-guru-shAstrakI mahimA aur andar shuddhAtmA kaise pahachAname.n Aye? mai.n to bahut bAr yah ek hI kahatI hU.N aur yah ek hI karanA hai. ek AtmAko pahachAne, bas, usame.n sab A jAtA hai. use pahachAnanekI bhAvanAme.n yah sab kArya- dev-guru-shAstrake sAnnidhyame.n rahakar unakI ArAdhanA aur AtmAkI ArAdhAnA, bas! yah karanekA hai.

laukikake jIvan dekho to kaise jAte hai.n. yah jIvan, yah jIvan jo AtmAke liye vyatIt kiyA vah jIvan hI jIvan hai. bAkIke jIvan, sab sa.nsArake jIvan vyartha hai. laukik jIvaname.n pUrA dinA khAnA, pInA, yah, vah, vyavahAr rakho, yah rakho, vah

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rakho, aisA jIvan vah jIvan nahI.n hai. is manuShya jIvaname.n Akar j~nAyakakA dhyey aur dev-guru-shAstrakA sAnnidhya mile, usame.n hI jIvan vyatIt ho vahI jIvan hai. bAkI to sab jIvan niShphal jIvan, sUkhA jIvan hai, sab tuchCha jIvan hai. vah jIvan Adarane yogya nahI.n hai. ek shuddhAtmA Adarane yogya hai. vah sab jIvan vyartha hai. jis jIvaname.n kuCh kiyA nahI.n, shuddhAtmAkA dhyey rakhA nahI.n, ArAdhanA kI nahI.n, dev-guru-shAstrakI mahimA nahI.n kI, vah jIvan vyartha hai.

vah AtA hai na? yah gR^ihasthAshram kis kAmakA ki jis gR^ihasthAshramame.n guruke pAvan charaN nahI.n hai, jisame.n gurukA AhAradAn nahI.n hai, jisame.n jinendradevake darshan nahI.n hai, jisame.n shAstrakA svAdhyAy nahI.n hai, us gR^ihasthAshramako AchAryadev kahate hai.n, pAnIme.n DUbo denA. gR^ihastho.nko aisA kahate hai.n. vah gR^ihasthAshram to AdaraNIy hai hI nahI.n, yah AtmA AdaraNIy hai. dev-guru-shAstrakA sAnnidhya AdaraNIy hai, shuddhAtmAke dhyeyapUrvaka. andar mukhya to AtmA ArAdhanIy hai. usake sAth dev-guru-shAstrakI ArAdhanA.

mumukShuH- Apake Ashrayase hamArA jIvan saphal ho, vahI bhAvanA.

samAdhAnaH- ... yah sab yahA.N Ate hai.n, kyA karanA? .. kartAbuddhi, ekatvabuddhi TUT gayI aur j~nAtAdhArA pragaT ho gayI. mai.n j~nAyak hU.N, aisA vikalpase nirNay karatA hai vah alag, j~nAnIko sahaj rahatA hai. j~nAtAdhArA chAlu hI hai. do dhArA sAthame.n chalatI hai. phir vichAr nahI.n karanA paDatA ki yah vikalpa A gayA, mai.n to j~nAyak hU.N. yah ekatva ho gayA, aisA vichAr nahI.n karanA paDatA. vikalpakI dhArA aur j~nAtAkI dhArA do dhArA sAthame.n chalatI hai. shubhAshubh koI bhI vikalpa ho, U.Nchese U.NchA vikalpa ho, to bhI usakI dono.n dhArA chAlU hai, pratikShaN chAlU hai. dev-guru-shAstrake shubh vikalpa ho to bhI use j~nAtAdhAr to chAlU hI hai. usame.n ekatva nahI.n hotA. use bahut bhAv Aye, bahut bhakti Aye isaliye usakI dhArA TUT jAy aur ekatva ho jAy, aisA use nahI.n hotA. usakI j~nAtAdhArA to chAlU hI rahatI hai. bhAv Aye, utsAh Aye, chAhe jaise shubh vikalpa ho to bhI usakI j~nAtAdhArA to chAlU hI hai.

mumukShuH- shuddha pariNatike anukUl aisA shubharAg Ane par bhI usame.n ekatva hotA nahI.n.

samAdhAnaH- ekatva nahI.n hotA. kartR^itva to hI ChUTegA, j~nAyakakA bal baDhanese. mai.n to j~nAyak hU.N, udAsIn j~nAyak, basa. kisIkA kuCh nahI.n kar sakatA, mai.n to j~nAyak hU.N. juD jAtA hU.N, lekin mai.n j~nAyak hU.N, yah merA svabhAv nahI.n hai, mai.n to jAnanevAlA hU.N. j~nAtA rahanekA, j~nAyak svabhAvakI jise dR^iDhatA ho ki mai.n to j~nAyak hI hU.N, aise

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udAsIn rahanekI, udAsInatAme.n jise ras ho, jise j~nAtAkA ras ho, vah rah sakatA hai.

jIvako anAdise kartAbuddhikA itanA ras lagA hai ki mai.n karu.N, yah kiyA, mai.nne kiyA, mai.nne kiyA usake rasame.n, j~nAtA hokar nivR^itta rahanA ki mai.n kuCh nahI.n kar sakatA, vah use mushkil lagatA hai. jise j~nAyakakA ras ho, jise j~nAyakakI mahimA ho, vah andarase mahimAse nirNay kare, shraddhA kare aur pariNati pragaT kar sake. vikalpame.n bhI jise andar j~nAyak rahanekA utanA ras ho yA jise andar j~nAyakakI nivR^itta dashA ruchatI ho vah rah sake. jise kartR^itvabuddhi ruchatI ho vah nahI.n rah sakatA.

andarase mahimA laganI chAhiye. usane vichArase nakkI to kiyA ki mai.n kartA nahI.n hU.N, j~nAtA hU.N. lekin use j~nAyakakA mahimA aur ras ho to use j~nAyakakI bAra.nbAr bhAvanA aur jij~nAsA ho, to use pariNati pragaT hotI hai. kuCh karanA nahI.n hai, aisI nivR^itta dashA jise suhAtI ho, ruchatI ho vah andar rah sakatA hai.

mumukShuH- kuCh kiye binA rah sake, aisA?

samAdhAnaH- hA.N. mai.n kuCh nahI.n kar sakatA. mai.n to jAnanevAlA hU.N. aisI udAsInatA aur aisI j~nAyakakI mahimA jise lage, vah svaya.n shraddhA karake vaisI pariNati kar sakatA hai, to usakI sahaj dashA hotI hai. ... nikammA ho jAy, mai.n kuCh nahI.n kar sakatA? shUnya ho jAy? niShkriy ho jAy? aisA andar lagatA ho vah nahI.n rah sakatA.

mumukShuH- isame.n sab upAdhi khatma ho jAtI hai, bojA khatma ho jAtA hai.

samAdhAnaH- andar ras laganA chAhiye. shraddhA to kare. phir ChUTe to bAdame.n. pahale aisI shraddhA to kare. andar aisI mahimA, shraddhA kare. pariNati bAdame.n pragaT hotI hai. pariNati pragaT honeke bAd alpa asthiratA rahatI hai. lekin use andar ekatvabuddhi toDanI mushkil paDatI hai. siddha bhagavAnako kuCh nahI.n karanekA hai? pravR^ittikA utanA ras hotA hai, isaliye aisA lagatA hai ki kuCh nahI.n karanekA? yah sab ChUT jAyagA to shUnya ho jAye.nge to? aisA ho jAtA hai. parantu andar svabhAvame.n sab bharA hai, aisI mahimA andarase AnI chAhiye, utanI shraddhA andarase AnI chAhiye.

mumukShuH- j~nAnadhArA bhI nirvikalpapane kAm kar rahI hai?

samAdhAnaH- jaise shraddhA kArya karatI hai, vaise j~nAnadhArA bhI sahaj kAm karatI hai. use vikalpa nahI.n uThAnA paDatA. j~nAnadhArA bhI nirvikalpapane kAm karatI hai aur shraddhA bhI vaise hI kAm karatI hai. nirvikalpa yAnI svAnubhUtikI nirvikalpatA nahI.n. usakI pariNati us jAtakI hai, pariNati us jAtakI hai. use rAgakA vikalpa kar-karake rahanA paDatA hai, aisA nahI.n hai. sahaj pariNati (chalatI) hai.

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to anAdise sahaj ho gayI hai. ekatva (pariNatiko) vikalpa karake rakhanI nahI.n paDatI. vikalpa juDe hue hai.n, vaise hI rahatI hai.

vaise j~nAnadhArA bhI usakI aisI sahaj ho jAtI hai ki use vikalpa karake rakhanI nahI.n paDatI. apanA svabhAv hai isaliye vah to sahaj hI hai. lekin svaya.n us rUp sahaj pariNamatA nahI.n, isaliye vah sahaj nahI.n hotI. kartR^itvabuddhikA ras lagA hai. isaliye svaya.n sahaj nahI.n pariNamatA. usakI j~nAnadhArA sahaj hI hai. jaise ekatvadhArA (chalatI thI), usame.nse bhedaj~nAnakI dhArA huyI to udayadhArA aur j~nAnadhArA, dono.n use chAlU ho jAtI hai.

mumukShuH- us prakArakA ras honA chAhiye.

samAdhAnaH- us prakArakA j~nAtAdhArAkA ras andarase laganA chAhiye.

mumukShuH- mujhe dIkShA hI lenI hai, aisA bachapanase (lagatA thA). dukAn par baiThate the tab shAstra hI paDhate the. ChoTe the (us vakta) yadi koI bhakti kare, bhajan kare unake pAs jAte the. aisA unako bachapanase vairAgya thA. bAdame.n pAlej gaye. unakA janma umarAlAme.n huA, thoDe sAl vahA.N rahe, bAdame.n pAlej gaye. vahA.N dukAn par baiThate. unake bhAI ... svaya.n svAdhyAy karate the. 22-23 sAlakI umrame.n guru DhU.NDhaneke liye hindustAname.n phire ki koI achChe guru mile. boTAd sa.npradAyake hirAjI mahArAj sthAnakavAsI sa.npradAyame.n dIkShA lI.

tatpashchAt shAstrakA abhyAs bahut (kiyA), sab vichAr karake paDhA, usame.nse unhe.n lagA ki sachchA mArga kyA hai. sthAnakavAsI, shvetA.nbar shAstra aur diga.nbar shAstra, sab shAstra paDhe. usame.nse unhe.n aisA lagA ki mujhe AtmAkA karanA hai. yah sharIr bhinna, AtmA bhinna, andar AtmA jAnanevAlA, yah vikalpajAl ho rahI hai vah merA svabhAv nahI.n hai. bas, ek j~nAyak AtmA mujhe samajhame.n A gayA. samayasAr diga.nbar shAstra (milA), usame.nse unhe.n vah andarase samajhame.n AyA aur a.ntarame.n utar gaye. usame.nse unhe.n aisA lagA ki ab mujhe is bhesame.n nahI.n rahanA hai. isaliye unho.nne yahA.N Akar parivartan kiyA.

sthAnakavAsI sa.npradAyame.n ve bahut uchcha koTike gine jAte the. unakI kriyAe.N barAbar shAstra anusAr thI. jo AhAr le to barAbar unake liye kiyA ho to aisA kuCh nahI.n lete the. thoDA bhI aisA lage ki unake liyA banAyA hai to vApas chale jAte. itane (kaDak the). unake pravachaname.n hajAro.n log Ate the. subah pA.Nch-pA.Nch bajese sab biChAvan lagA dete the, jagah rokaneke liye. unakA pravachan AtmA par chalatA, sab sunakar Ashcharyachakit ho jAte. pravachaname.n koI AvAj nahI.n karatA. koI vastu girI ho to AvAj Aye, itanI shA.nti unake pravachaname.n hotI thI. utane loga. sthAnakavAsIke

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bahut uchcha koTike (gine jAte the). unakI kriyAe.N itanI sakhta thI. shAstra anusAr pAlate the.

shAstrame.n jo likhA ho utane hI kapaDe rakhe, usI tarah vihAr kare, koI chIj lene jAy to unake liye banAyI gayI koI vastu nahI.n lete, turanta vApas chale Ate. aisI to unakI kriyAe.N thI. usame.nse unhe.n lagA ki AtmAkI bAt diga.nbar shAstrame.n hai. mai.n yah mAnatA hU.N to is bhesame.n rahakar kyA karu.N? isaliye a.ntarame.n to utar gaye, phir parivartan kiyA. muhapattikA tyAg kiyA. logo.nko un par atya.nt bhakti thI. unho.nne parivartan kiyA to bahut logo.nne virodh bhI kiyA, phir bhI svaya.n aDig rahe. yahA.N ek makAn hai vahA.N parivartan kiyA. phir vaShA tak shAstrakA abhyAs, svaya.n andar bahut j~nAn-dhyAn karate the. phir logo.nko dhIre-dhIre lagA ki jo kAnajIsvAmI kahate hai.n vah satya hai. unho.nne parivartan kiyA (barAbar hai). unakI ChAp logo.nme.n itanI ho gayI thI. itanI ChAp ho gayI thI to dhIre-dhIre log unake pIChe phirase Ane lage. thoDe to unake sAth hI khaDe the.

sthAnakavAsI sa.npradAyame.n itanI ChAp thI ki sab dhIre-dhIre (A gaye). ve kahate hai.n vah satya hI hai. kAnajIsvAmI binA vichAr kiye kuCh nahI.n karate. sab log unake pAs vApas Aye. tatpashchAt unakA vihAr Adi shurU huA. bAdame.n dhIre-dhIre sab bhakta ikaTThe hone lage. unho.nne kisIko kuCh nahI.n kahA hai. bhakto.nne milakar svAdhyAy mandir, mandir, yah samavasaraN, mAnasta.nbh sabane milakar banAyA. phir dhIre-dhIre unakA vihAr (chAlU huA). pahale saurAShTrame.n vihAr huA, phir dhIre-dhIre gujarAtame.n, mu.nbaIme.n har jagah gaye. vyAkhyAne.n itane log Ate the. unake pravachaname.n itanI AtmAkI bAte.n AtI thI ki log Ashcharyachakit hokar sunate the.

phir to unhoe.nne yAtrA kI. hindustAnake kitane hI hindIbhAShI muDane lage. diga.nbar jo us or hindIbhAShI hai, vah sab muDane lage. yahA.N nAnAlAl kAlIdAs derAvAsI hai.n, vah bhI is or muDe. ve mukhyarUpase bhAg lete hai.n. sthAnakavAsI mukhyapane, koI derAvAsI, diga.nbar is or muDe. pUrA jIvan unho.nne isI tarah vyatIt kiyA. ek AtmAkA karanA, ek AtmAke liye sab karate.

mumukShuH- svargavAs huA us vakta kitanI umra thI?

samAdhAnaH- 91.

mumukShuH- sa.nsAr to unho.nne bhogA hI nahI.n na?

samAdhAnaH- nahI.n. bAl brahmachArI the. vivAh nahI.n kiyA. sabane Agrah kiyA, lekin kahA, mujhe dIkShA lenI hai aur mujhe brahmachArI hI rahanA hai. dIkShA le lI. 45

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varShame.n sthAnakavAsI sa.npradAyakA parivartan kiyA. 45 varShakI umrame.n.

mumukShuH- unakA vyavasAy kyA thA?

samAdhAnaH- pAlejame.n unake bhAI chalAte the. ve to nirlep (rahate the). ve to 24 varShakI umrame.n nikal gaye. kirAnekA. pAlejame.n vyApAr bahut achChA chalatA thA.

mumukShuH- Ap kitane sAlase..

samAdhAnaH- mai.n to 17 sAlakI umrase AtI-jAtI rahatI thI. 19 varShakI umrase parichay (huA). merI 19 sAlakI umra thI.

mumukShuH- tabase Apako parichay hai. dhanya hai Apako! itanI ChoTI umrase Ap unake sAth rahakar..

samAdhAnaH- .. abhI to devalokame.n hai.n. lekin ve to mahApuruSh koI apUrva puruSh the. uchcha AtmA, mokShagAmI. ... vah sab bAharakA hai. bAkI unakI AtmAkI bAt, AtmA hI alag thA.

mumukShuH- parantu is or muDaneke liye kyA karanA?

samAdhAnaH- AtmAko pahachAnanekA prayatna karanA chAhiye. pahale to yah sa.nsAr duHkharUp hai, AtmAme.n hI sukh hai, aise a.ntarame.nse ruchi karanI chAhiye. phir usakA vichAr, vA.nchan sab (karanA). andarase jij~nAsA karanI chAhiye. AtmA andar ek shAshvat vastu hai. use pahachAnaneke liye prayatna karanA chAhiye. yah sharIr bhinna, AtmA bhinna, andar vikalpa hote hai.n vah nahI.n, svaya.n siddha bhagavAn jaisA hai. lekin vah nakkI kab ho? svaya.n kuCh vichAr kare, vA.nchan kare, sachchI samajh kare to samajhame.n Aye aisA hai.

..kyA hai nakkI karanA chAhiye, vA.nchan, vichAr karanA chAhiye. sat mArga kyA hai, use khojakar satya kyA hai, yah nakkI karanA. satya kyA hai? aur AtmA kyA hai? satya kyA hai yah vichArase nakkI karanA chAhiye, to Age baDhA jAya. utanI jij~nAsA honI chAhiye na ki mujhe AtmAkA karanA hai. AtmAkA karanA hai, aisI laganI lagI ho to satya khojaneko vaisA satsa.ng DhU.NDhe, vaise vichAr kare, vA.nchan kare, satya kahanevAle kaun hai, use khojaneke liye koI satyakI bAt karate ho vahA.N unakA satsa.ng kare to hotA hai.

mumukShuH- diga.nbar pa.nthakA AcharaN kiyA...

samAdhAnaH- bhes to pahanate the, lekin ve svaya.n brahmachArI bhesame.n rahate the. ek muhapatti ChoDI, bAkI kuCh nahI.n. koI muni banakar vastra nikAlakar diga.nbar (ho) vah alag, koI brahmachArI rahe, anek prakArase rahate hai.n, usakI koTi hotI hai. lAkho.n logo.nko unho.nne is or moDA. unake bhakta vah unake shiShya hai.n. bAkI unake bAd koI shiShya

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ho, us tarahase shiShya nahI.n. unake lAkho.n bhakta hai.n. 45-45 sAl tak vANI barasAyI. bahut jIv taiyAr ho gaye hai.n. har gA.Nvame.n mumukShu maNDal chatA hai. sab gA.Nvame.n vA.nchan chalatA hai, har jagaha. yahA.N bhI vA.nchan chalatA hai.

mumukShuH- unake bAd padavI lenevAlA koI...? samAdhAnaH- aisI koI padavI Adi nahI.n. mumukShuH- aisA jIv U.NchA hai na. samAdhAnaH- mArga dikhAkar gaye, vANI barasAkar gaye. shiShya hai, aisA kuCh unho.nne rakhA nahI.n.